faith

unfair really unfiar

2005-10-28T18:22:00.000+08:00

Unfair.. really unfair

tts why i nv liked home. nv had a nice family.. cant talk to them. nv used to talk much from young. maybe tts why im kinda shy and cant talk really well? haha. did a compre recently and it says tt people with loving parents that always talk them will be more polite and speak better also. haha.

and wad i wanna sae is.. my stupid father. and sometimes my mom. all think tt my bro is so great. i dun understd why. jus cos he is earning now.. got a SIA job. which pays them qutie well. being able to bring income home. they think tt he is so great. and even b4 he got the job. they alr think tt he is much more superior than mi. pls.. as if they noe anything. tts why i dun like to tok to my parents. and get more and mroe rebellious. its a vicious cycle. i dun like them being unfair and always praise my brother. so i dun wan to talk to them or purposely talk back. and then the most they hate mi and think im useless. and discriminate against mi more. and the more rebellious i get. ZzZzzz..

my dad noes nth abt education. i studied enough to get to sji. which is quite a good sch. and do i get anything? last time i keep running.. come home late and everything.. someitmes getting injured.. they will sae.. u run so much for wad? got use meh? dun run alr la. even if i bring so mani medals and everyting back.. they still dun understd. till i was on newspapers.. represented spore when i was sec 2. then they noticed.. "oh.. so u are actually doing sth" i dun get encouragement at all. and had to choose jc last time.. they sae.. u can go jc anot.. i was like.. of cos? very easy to get in wad. depending on which jc onli. but especially my dad. he will go like.. "u can anot? dun tok assif u very good. can go jc then sae." plssss... if my bro cannot get to jc doenst mean i cannot ok? jc very hard meh? pls.. i told them i can go to rj.. then my dad went like "HAHAHAHA.. dun think u are very good" i really got into rj alr wad.. but i rejected them and went chose vj. have they realised tt im actually better than my bro? studies.. track..?

NO!! jus now.. they ask mi to do sth. i dun wan to go. i sae im studying. im really studying.. then my dad sae.. why got so mani exams? take and take.. i sae this one is for uni.. then he go again.. haha.. u can go uni anot? i sae.. uni very hard meh? see wad course u study onli. but he doesnt noe anything. think if u can enter uni u are the smartest ppl in spore. pls la.. so mani ppl enter uni.. very difficult meh? im not saying i can get medicine or law.. but if i take any course.. sure can enter one wad. cos wad he noes is onli tt if u can enter.. u are very smart. he doesnt noe abt courses or anything. then he sae.. ur bro also went to study uni (some night course uni thingy) also nv get anything. so he cannot get anything means i cant get? so he is so much better than me? i msut be lower than him? i nv get appreciated in this house la. even my relatives still rem i was on the papers last time.. and still ask abt my running.. but do my parents noe anything? when they are the one tt should noe? even my bro doesnt noe much.. abt how all the educational system work.

so he ended the conversation with.. "so if u can enter uni.. then...( i was thinking maybe i will get some reward finally) good for u"

will this ever end? will i ever be better than my bro in their eyes? i will nv be able to make them happy.. i bet it will be totally a different treatment if its my bro entering jc and uni and all..

Aiming High

2005-10-15T19:27:00.000+08:00

Reaching for the stars..

jus wanna sae sth abt something i did at the beginning of this month. my bro went to ballot for a place at a flee market at tanglin mall. i dun even noe they have a flee market organised like twice a month. so no bad. but my smart bro.. who's travelling everywhere everytime.. sae if hes not in spore, i'll have to go and tent the stall. so well.. he wasnt in spore tt time.

so i went with eve. and my mom. eve brought her clothes to sell also. but mostly its all mine. at 1st i tot im not going to make any money.. jus wasting my time there. but wah.. when i reached. its like filled with ppl la. sporeans actually noe such dates and come here to chiong. haha. but actually.. its all the philipinos. and blanga. philipinos are actually quite rich noe. some open their wallet alot of money. think its their pay dae. was 1st of oct wad. so yeah. sold 2nd hand clothes. and most expensive onli 15 bucks. some original soccer jerseys. man u, liverpool and england. then actually we had some branded stuff la. then its very diff to sell. if they ask for the price.. and i go like 20 bucks.. they will give some disgusted face. like i have said a ridiculous price. and throw my clothes back and walk away. blanga are the worst. everything also wan to be super cheap. i was alr selling at 2 bucks each .. then they will pick 2 shirts. and ask.. "together 2 dollars?" then i sae cannot.. 2 bucks each not pay 2 bucks and pick how mani u like. they will go.. i buy more from u wad.. wth. everything also ask one dollar. at least philipinos sell them at 4 bucks each they will buy also. made abt 200 bucks tt dae. quite alrite la. not bad.

then yest went to eat with shu, wenx, mag, sui, yolks and chun. had fish and co at suntec. the seafood platter is nice man. alot of things. shared with chun. then after tt.. sat there and talk la. then talk abt jobs in the future. then mi and chun sae we dun mind to be house husbands if our wivies can earn alot. then kena scolded by all the gals there. lol. sae we useless. and shu and wenx were like.. wanting to have a starting pay of 6k and 4k. pls la. if they dun depend on anyone.. and base on their own abilities. how is tt possible. starting pay lor. and chun was saeing.. if they noe how hard is it to earn like 16k salary? then he said.. u all wan 16k in 25 years is still possbile la. means they will earn 16k at 40+ years old. then ah.. all of the gals gave like a damn sian and irritated face. cos they think tt 16k is too lil. they wan to earn much more. and liek within 10 years. maybe im too down to earth. but if i can earn 10k-12k at wadeva age.. im happy enough. how mani ppl earn more than 10k lor.. small percentage actually, though there are mani rich ppl ard.

and some western stall below my house at the hawker centre.. i go there too often alr i think. and always eat this same thign. cos its quite nice. some pasta. and now.. when i pay. the person will ask mi how much i usually pay and i'll jus pay at tt amt. cos sometimes they forget how much the thing cost. maybe next time i sae 2 bucks. haha.

A's coming

2005-10-06T16:01:00.000+08:00

A's Coming

wah sian.. need to start studying again. nv go sch todae.. dunno wads wrong with me. jus dun feel like going to sch. hai. ok. my final grades are very bad. C E O. i really hope i can do well enough to get to uni. and there's been talks going on in sch.. like yest.. and i attended and think i have sort of decided tt im going to take NTU accountancy. if i can make it. its 3 years.. and have direct honours. so its short.. and good. they are like the best business schs in ASEAN and top 5 in Asia. cool man. and i tot abt SMU, think its very vibrant and may be fun. but hmm.. its jus wad we see.. maybe they get the fun ppl to come and talk to us. jus like vj.. it looks like its such a fun sch at open house and everything.. but when im actually here.. it isnt so. so mayb SMU is the same? haha. anyway.. will go NTU if i can make it. study hard man.

My uncle passed away.. the one fighting with cancer. its not a very long fight. onli a few months. and think his case is more serious. but in a way. it may be good as he does not have to suffer so much. at least hes not really in great pain or anything.

my this cousin.. who is always very nice to me.. he is much older and working and all la. always give mi moneya nd everything, he said sth tt strucked me. he asked me.. "do u noe why im so nice to you?" i sae i dunno.. then he sae.. "cos i promised your godmom tt i will take care of u" then i was stunned and jus keep quiet. my Godmom passed away when i was very young. and its been so mani years.. a promise he made so mani years ago.. and he is stil keeping to his promise now. to take care of me. wah. he is really a very nice person. he keeps to his promise.. nv see him complain abt anything. treat ppl very well. im surprised how can someone keep his promise for so long. and tt.. wah. we have to be careful wad we sae to ppl and wad we promise them. cos it could mean tt we have to do sth for a lifetime. wah. scary.

but one funny thing is tt.. i was going home with his cousin and her mom, which is my aunt after the funeral. then ah.. my aunt secretly give mi 10 bucks.. with her back facing my cousin, and ask me to quickly keep the money. dun let my cousin see. haha. so i jus keep it. then like 10 mins later.. my cousin suddenly walk towards me and stuff 20 bucks into my pocket.. and he sae.. keep quiet. dun let my aunt noe. wahaha! both of them so secretive so wad. 2 doign the same thign at the same time. i jus kept it cos i din wan to cause a commotion. cos its suppose to be secretive. haha. so in the end, i benefitted. cool. but tis jus quite funny. ok.. goign to study.

what the hell?

2005-09-26T23:01:00.000+08:00

What the hell?

this is quite unbelievable. im being stalked by a guy. im my way home after a run. run under the hot sun. almost going die. run a while cannot take it alr. 1st run in 3 months. dislike running man. think gyming will be much better.

omg. he looks like he is abt 30+.. wearing long sleeve.. office bag and everything. and its 3+ pm.. duno why he is not in his office doing dunno wad. at 1st he walked past mi.. then keep turning back and look.. like 4, 5 times.. then stop there. so i jus walk pass him.. tot its nothing.. and i was really thristy.. wan to go home for a drink. then after a while i realised he was behind mi! he followed me. so i stop and let he pass mi. and stare at him. lol. so now he pass mi.. and crossed the zebra crossing to get to the other side.. towards tiong bahru plaza. so i tot he is going off. so i happily walk towards my house. and 10 secs later i jus turn back to check he is gone. and guess wad.. he is standing opp the road.. tt he crossed. not moving.. standing beside a rubbish bin eating sth and throwing away while staring at mi again!!!

freaking.. so i quickly walked to the blcok beside my block. and went up to the 2nd floor. so tt he may think tt i stay there. i walked thru the whole level.. to get to the other side of the stairs.. then walked down, wanting to go home alr. to my horror.. he was at the ground floor.. looking ard!!! omg.. means tt he crossed back from the zebra crossing and follow mi to the block. freaking.. scared he rob mi or do sth scary. tho i have no money with mi. but i dun wan to fool ard. so i quickly run to my block and run up the stairs and lock myself in my house. lol. dun dare to go out. this is freaking scary. im being stalked by a guy!

After a long time

2005-09-24T17:36:00.000+08:00

After a long time

i cut my hair! finally. after 3 months. and my hairstylist almost cannot recognise mi. sae i look different. too long nv cut hair. haha. but now tis good. cooling and all. shampoo and all tt also dun have to use so much.

todae is a restin dae. very tired. spent almost the whole of yest with eve. from morning.. went dental with her.. and we watched Shen Hua. the jacky chan new movie. i think its quite nice la. its very different from his other movies.. last time the movies all jus fight and fight.. all abt the same story line. but this one is more interesting. u still have the fighting scenes but the plot is quite good also. changing ard between the ancient time and now.. going back to an ancient warrior and then come back to become a modern hong kong guy. nice. ohoh.. and the indian gal in the movie is really quite hot.

met the guys at nite. going indochine. so we had dinner at billy bombers then went indochine. the potato salad at bombers were a bit weird.. abit bitter.. then apparently.. all of us went to shit later.. and leang wen the smelliest of all! haha. stink the whole place. =P

party at indochine wasnt very good. too few ppl. too mani guys also. opened a bottle of jack daniels. pretty ex. 210 bucks. but its jus like a gathering man.. guys outing. nice. brotherhood. too mani rj ppl there yest. and not very interesting. lucky got them. so its not too bad.

jus came back from daren's house. went his house to slp. his dog shit on the floor or sth. not the right place, then his bro take cane and whack. and scold like shit. so scary. haha. but think its the onli way to train a dog? so its ok la. watched longest yard at his house. funny man. nice nice. and now.. i need rest. zz..

Fighting on

2005-09-21T23:58:00.000+08:00

Fighting On..

went to hospital again todae. been going there everydae to visit my uncle. quite bad la. but he is still hanging on.. i hope he can hold on longer too. and todae.. the person on the ben opp my uncle passed away. and had teh curtains covered and everything. tot the nurses are doing sth.. till my cousin told mi that the person passed away. the person has been there since the 1st dae i went to visit my uncle. and he has mani tubes and needles poked into his body, to keep him alive. and the machines are pumping quite hard.. can hear the sound one lor. and todae.. he passed away. my aunt covered the curtains of my uncle's bed too.. so tt he will not see the dead person or anything.. to feel upset or frighten in any way.

and one interesting thing. carry one bed in.. with a piece of cloth covering the whole bed till the cloth reach the floor. and when they came out.. the bed is still flat on top. we were like.. where is the man? din they carry him out? then i realised.. he is put in the lower sector of the bed. tts 2 levels on the bed. quite smart.. so tt passer-by wun get scared. a body-like object been covered by a cloth can be quite scary.. so puting the body in teh lower sector.. ppl will think tt its jus an empty bed. quite smart.

post prelims daes are really so boring.. really dunno wad to do. so sian. and i think i dun have enough frens. poor thing. always stay at home and slp. and i realised.. ppl really need to have sth to do. now i miss sch alr.. wan to go back and get my results. haha. ppl need to be doing sth.. ns studying.. working.. at least they have a purpose in life. cannot idle ard and do nohting. enought he ah bengs.. tho they idle ard.. but they can still play arcade.. have some fights.. and disturb ppl everydae. and they have their gang of frens. so cool. at least their life wun be as boring as mine. they still have to run away from police.. quite fun. i used to run away from police last time. small ah beng.. all my frens big ah beng. lol..

Woooo

2005-09-19T22:19:00.000+08:00

Wooooooo

hoho.. i finally have the time to blog. after so so long. cos i've finished my papers todae. actually was going well til todae. din really study during the weekends. tts why. sleep and watch too much tv. todae dunno how to do anything. damn sad lah. wanted to do well.. at least well enough for my standard. but now.. thnk going to be borderline or fail again. =(

and todae is a very bad dae. not sae tt i din do well for my papers.. but i left my SJI jacket in sch!! in the hall. i forget to take when i left the hall! super angry. my beloved jacket. sji noe? precious. sian la. hai. i hope can find it. dun wan to lose it lor.

and on the train coming home jus now.. dunno whether im not in a good mood or wad. but sporeans.. really irritating. some of them. its always so crowded at cit hall and raffles place.. then got a whole bunch of ppl coming in.. and ppl in the train refuse to move of the centre or to the back. i see everyone inside having so much space.. and ppl at the door squeeze like bloody kuku birds. wad is this man. imagine urself being the one at the door. and jus nice u are the last one.. cant get inside the train cos these stupid ppl dun move to the centre or the back.

and then my uncle.. in a very bad shape. jus visited him in the hospital. jus see how long he can last now. he has mani siblings. nto related to me. and everyone is like so sad when they see him. almsot everyone teared. he cant tok properly and everything alr. cant control himself. sometimes its nice to have mani siblings. got so mani ppl to care. all share the burden together.. nicer feeling. mroe love around. haha. cannot have one kid. damn lonely. finally finished exams.. like alot of things to do.. but at teh moment.. still feel like studying. haha. in the mood alr. but haven been slping well and eating well these 2 wks la. so need some rest 1st i guess.

dunno why. but i searched my cd collection jus now. all so dusty and everything. omg. so dirty lor. but lucky the cd can play. now listening to David Tao. some chinese cd. privated cd somemore. dunno buy from where. forgot reaa.. haha. i need rest.

hospital visit

2005-08-05T23:06:00.000+08:00

Touched

wah.. i dunno wads wrong, but suddenly 2 of my uncles fell ill. really quite bad. jus went to visit one.. my eldest uncle. i think he is 70+.. really old. can see hes old and fragile. its my mom's bro.. and they have 10 siblings together. my mom and her twin sis are the youngest. then last time.. they were poor and to many siblings.. so they wanted to give my mom and my aunty away.. but its this eldest uncle and her wife tt wan to keep them and take care of them..

now alot of prob.. all teh old sickness.. and the main thing is his kidneys failed. very bad. he is so weak alr.. dunno if he can stand the dialysis. then the hospital is such a scary place.. like everyone look so ol dand sickly.. like wah.. i will not wan to be there man.. they are so scary.. and teh nurses are really brave ppl.. salute them man. haha.

my other uncle had lung cancer.. hai. very bad also. will visit him tmr or sth.. see how.

and i heard from my cousin.. daughter of this uncle tt had lung cancer.. tt she suddenly learn alot abt love and family during this period. all teh love really cant beat teh love between a married couple.. like they really go all out for each other. like my aunty has been so busy.. doing everything for my this uncle.. even when he cant sleep at nite.. when he ask for anything in the middle of the nite.. my aunt will do for him. and now.. my cousin said sometimes they are see them in the room. talking abt how they met last time.. and they soemtimes also sing together.. its like so touching lah... though i cant really experience the love totally.. but i think i can understd. its really so touching.. its really love... something to think abt..

2.4km.. omg..

2005-08-02T23:33:00.000+08:00

2.4km.. omg..

long long time since i last blogged. ok firstly. sat was bong's bdae.. then we all went out to celebrate with him la. after playing acade and everything.. we all wanted to go and eat alr.. then sth really interesting happened. we couldnt decide where to eat.. then wanted to eat buffet. then ended up its like 40+ bucks.walk ard everywhere to find food. damn tiring. mi and some otehr i guess think its like too ex lah. but in the end we all decide to go la. then duno why.. suddenly.. he was damn angry. he sae like if we dun wan to eat.. then dun eat.. dun have to compromise jus becos its his bdae. i think he dun wan us to do thigns reluctantly. then he jus got angry and starting walking. we tot he goign to the buffet.. since we all oka lr. but he walked to teh bus stop and took a bus home. lol.. omg. bdae boy walk home b4 when we all come out and celebrate his bdae. cool.

and napfa.. failed it last wk.. cos of 2.4! my most hated thing!! lol. and i passed it todae.. but got silver onli lor. miss gold by 4 secs. irritating.. but nvm.. dun have to go ns for 2 extra months.

and todae we had photo taking. for sch magazine. i think its quite cool. liek everyone wearing ties.. looking really nice.. and playing ard.. taking alot of photos. really cool. hope to have a nice cam of my own so i can take all these photos too.. memories.

yeah. got this guy keep msging evelyn. then i asked him to stop being an irritant. he replied mi.. fuck u not ur business ok? lol.. then sae.. u dun waste my msg. u wan come out tok face to face. lol.. total ah beng. who will like this type of person? msg eve damn nice.. msg otehr ppl so vulgar. he is damn amusing man. now he dun reply mi anymore.. cannot jack him alr. not fun.. his english is not very good also. super ah beng. haha. no one to play with alr.. ok i go study..

will try to blog mroe often again..

Expected but still disappointing..

2005-07-12T21:45:00.000+08:00

Expected but still disappointing..

jus finsihed my race todae.. 400h.. haha. not my best event..but i still wanted to qualify. alrite.. in the end i din. not tt my leg is hurting.. but cos my 400m is really too lousy now. cannot stand it. really cant move.. injured for too long.. then nv train. hopefully i can do well for 110h.. and im qutie confident i can at least qualify for finals. yup yup. expected not to qualify.. but still abit sad.. looking back. i have nv not qualified for any inter sch race b4. from pri sch.. i qualified for all the finals for my individual race.. rah!!

okok.. and my results are not tt bad leh. i tot i really fail maths alr lor. but turn out.. the marker not bad lah.. not super strict.. so at least got one or two marks here and there. then i passed!! really happy la. so yeah!! haha. =) one more paper haven get back..

had an outing last sundae with the guys.. it qas quite interesting.. esp buying 3 tix.. and 6 ppl go in and watch a movie. haha. =) ok.. tts all for todae.

Exams over

2005-07-02T22:35:00.000+08:00

Exams Over

haven been bloggin for a long long time.. and yeah finally, exams are over. tho i din really study alot this time round, but i was still thinking of passing most of the subs.. but apparently.. i think i still cannot pass.. perhaps onli will pass econs, 1 out of 3 papers. and vj papers are not easy lor. set until so hard.. jus make mi more depressed onli. sian.

ohoh.. and matt kong is back. its like one yr alr.. see this stupid guy again. so fast la... going army soon alr. oh and i went for the ns checkout. im pes A. means im normal. nothing's wrong. haha. there even a dental part and they will grp u into the different pes. so means like if im pes A for everything.. but extremely bad dental conditions.. mayb i will become pes B or C. haha. tts damn lame.

and anyway.. kong hasnt changed much. still as crappy. but a lil vulgar now. played mj 2 times and monopoly. we haven played board games since kong left last yr. so like 1 yr nv touch monopoly and risk. guess now we will play those games more often now. i onli slpet at 9am. to 11am. so like freaking tired now.. i need to slp early tonite..

i jus realised mondae is youth dae. a lil slow.. but yeah holiday... again...

hm..

2005-06-21T22:42:00.000+08:00

Hmmm..

will continue bloggin after exams. haha. going to fail alr. hope i dun.

Birthday

2005-06-06T23:57:00.000+08:00

Birthday

my bdae is over! haha. and it was a great one. im happy enough. nv really celebrated my bdae b4.. or at least i have nv celebrated with so mani ppl. not alot tho.. abt 10+. and yeah.. we booked swissotel! its quite a convenient place.. jus take a lift down and its the shopping centre. can get everything we wan. so good.. so quite cool la. and its 60th level. so damn high. stand at the balcony also abit scared. im serious..

my bro checked in the room for us.. then shu wenx sandy came over 1st.. followed by the sji ppl. got to pick everyone up cos its at teh executive level and need to insert some dumb card to the lift to come up to the level. we played cards.. mahjong and tok cock throughout the dae. and i had 2 cakes.. one brownie cake from eve.. and one specially made one with mahjong tiles on top of it. and the mahjong cake was huge la.. so we couldnt finsih it and we threw the edible mahjong tiles down from 60 storeys to the road. nearly hit the cars man.. damn fun.

and we got complained twice.. 1st time they call and sae they have received complaints tt we are making too much noise.. and my nieghbour is trying to slp. but it was at 9pm. bloody slp so early.. sae got early flight the next dae. nvm.. then 11pm.. the manager come to knock my door and complain one more time.. lol. threaten to chase everyone out. haha. but we din get complained again.. lucky.

however the next dae.. at almost 9 am.. i saw my bloody neighbour eating breakfast outside with us in teh lounge la. kuku bird bird.. slp for 12 hrs and complain he has an early flight. my foot! ohoh.. terence chew finsihed half the bottle of absolute vodka.. drinking pure. another kuku. then ended up slping in the bath tub. went mad.

on the whole its quite enjoyable la. went swimming too. but the time i reached home.. i was dead tired la. really cannot get up. slept onli for 2 hrs. wah. tts it. oh and i saw the eye for a guy 2.. the woman.. the ang moh kinda woman. she was jus standing behind mi. onli 3 ppl in the taxi queue and she wanna call a cab. wait abit will die.. and she was toking on the phone.. quite rude and sarcastic.. arrogant. not a very nice person.

my trackers gave mi a surprise lil celebration todae..went swensons to eat. was not bad. so i really had an enjoyable birthdae. really happy and contented. i need and thank everyone.. and especially you.

really so glad i found you..

the Park

2005-05-30T13:19:00.000+08:00

the Park

tranining the park is really interesting.. haha. din wake up in tiem for trainin on sat.. so i train myself.. and btw, i din wake up todae again.. haha. =) anyway.. 1stly.. i was doign drills in the park.. then guess who i see.. my mom!! she come to the park to walk ard.. rathe than staying at home.. haha. quite a surprise to see her there. she din noe im there. but anyway.. then it was getting dark alr.. then theres this couple.. sitting in some high places.. talking and hugging.. not sure whether they were making out.. but dun think so. hahaa. parks are good places to make out. =) lastly.. theres his dog owner.. running with the dog.. tying the dog to him and force it to run with him!! omg.. then he was tellign the dog.. like.. "let's go.. come on.." hahaha. damn funny lah. then the dog was alr sticking out its tongue. think the dog more tired than the man.. cool..

anyway.. rendezvous hotel sucks. its so small. and the manager was trying to make trouble. not been very nice. the suite there is jus like any other normal room. so dumb. so not booking there alr. irritated. will get other hotels.

did cip yest.. for 9 hrs.. but we did like 1hr.. haha. we went for breakfast.. then walk ard.. then started doing for 1 hr.. cos we were onli given one paper of stickers. then like not enough. so we stopped after giving out all the stickers. then went to watch movie and slack till 5pm to return the tins. earn 9 hrs cip jus like that. cool man. haha. went for mj at gareth's hosue yest.. and we played in a super fast pace.. cos i need to catch the last train home. and its really like damn fast. 3 mins per game. damn impressive. and we played properly. haha. cool.. =)

Basketball

2005-05-23T22:35:00.000+08:00

Basketball

this extra long holi is damn shiok.. vesak dae! haha. so can play alot. go daren's house stay over and play mahjong. then watched some mahjong show by andy lau. even more motivated to play.. lol. interesting..

one more wk of sch b4 holis.. alot of matches to watch.. alot of finals.. will be interesting.. and will half alot of half daes.. so go sch like nv go like that. haha. good i like. =) add to my alr very slack timetable.. plus half daes.. hoho! ok went to watch basketball and its like woahh.. damn nice lah. watched the gals one b4 tt.. we got thrashed by hc.. but after tt.. the guys.. its really so damn fast and nice.. so much diff from teh gals. play like tortise. tj beat hc and im like in love with no 5 7 and 8 from tj.. they are like damn shen la.. really so good. hc were favs but they were so on form till they actually beat the all star team from hc. and the star in jc.. gabriel pang.. play like a bloody dog.. supeer no form.. supposed to be one of the top players in singapore schs.. and scored onli 2 pts the whole match.. from a lay up. and shot 0 out of 20. hoho. but anyway.. mani of us tt stayed to watch the match.. all dream to be basketball stars suddenly.. and for those who dun like it at all.. all got quite interested in it. its quite a cool sport.. esp if u are as good as no. 5 7 and 8. haha..

oh and mi and eve going to book a hotel for my bdae.. which is coming.. anyone who noes mi can come.. haha. hope it will be fun.. ok. going to get back to work..

Table Tennis

2005-05-11T13:56:00.000+08:00

Table Tennis

omg.. table tennis.. i went to watch the jc inter sch finals. its was freaking exciting. my sch gals was playing rj. and i noe a few of the gals so its quite cool to watch them play. the gals match was freakking exciting. we literally played till the last pt to decide the winner. we lost eventually. but jus a bit!! table tennis u got to win 3 sets to win a game. and every game.. we play till like 2 sets each.. then got to play till the last set. we take turns to win the games. then after 4 games.. we are still tied at 2-2. so we got to play till the last game. everyone else finsihed alr. guys and the 3rd and 4th placing. so everyone was waiting for the gals to finish and imagine mani hundreds to ppl watching u play and cheering for u. imagine the pressure. all eyes on u. whole sports hall was almost packed la. but we lost in the end.. very narrowly. can imagine if im in the team. try so hard and fight so hard.. and lose by jus a bit. think even i will cry.. lost the last set by 11-9. how close.

not onli teh gals were damn interesting. im so happy i went down cos there was a match of international standard. spore's table tennis wonder kid. was on newspaper last time. went sea games at teh age of 15. now hes 17. best from rj.. against best of nj. and guess who.. sji's very own Ni Qi!! ni qi imrpove alot la. smash like no body's business. both really damn pro. the rj guy won eventually.. think he got really alot more experience. but ni qi was whakcing him with his smashes at the start till he found out how to ocunter at the later sets. cool man. they mvoe and hit like internationals. wad a game. lucky i went down. sae henry (also from sji) played for nj too.

and last wkend.. eve got to stay over at m yhouse. was reall yhapp. have alot of time for ourselves. and we went to watch kingdom of heaven. omg! muslims fighting christians. make mi think of all teh racist things in sji. and apparently my dear fren leang is one of the founders of this racism thing. spread the whole sch. asalam muahlecom.. muahlecom salam. dunno how to spell.. but dinesh always make fun of it last time in class. lol.. damn funny. on the whole movie is not too bad la. quite ok. but the wkend was great..! missed mj tho. we gonna have one this wk!

2005-05-08T01:14:00.000+08:00

i m here to type!!!!!!!!

EVELYN IS HERE!!
invasion!!!
but i jus wanna say i love this handsome dude of mine!!

lOVE LOVE LOVE U!!!!!

Sports Day

2005-04-30T01:32:00.000+08:00

Sports Day

gonna be a long entry. hmm.. firstly.. todae is vj sports dae. actually.. vj sports dae sucks la. at 1st alot of ppl were not even at the grand stand, onli like later in teh dae then more ppl start to gather at teh stands and watch. think the more interesting thigns and worthy to see ones are the relays and cheerleading. and got this novalty race.. 20X100m. 20 ppl lor. omg. like non stop. haha.

ok 1stly.. i ran teh relays.. and my team is damn strong. haha. 4x100m.. i was the third runner.. nothing special.. we came in 1st, equalling the record set last yr. then came 4x400m, i was recovered from injury so my hamstring is not very strong la. felt abit strain after teh 4x100m alr. but still continued and indeed.. the 4x400m.. i ALMOST pulled my muscles again. lucky i warm up properly and put on thigns like hamstring guard. after onli 100m.. i felt teh strain in my hamstring.. so i slowed down.. and john overtook me. i tot its alrite so i tried to chase.. then i felt teh pull again.. i was like.. shit.. gone alr. i cant run!! so i could onli maintain the speed.. and i cant sprint.. and when i finsihed.. one more guy overtook mi and john was way way ahead.. this is worst 400m i have ever ran in recent years. probably of my life.. cannot believe it. almost caue my team to lose.. but my teammates were damn good. so we still won in teh end.

had dinner in changi.. and dunno why changi.. but alethia is damn high when she gets to eat choc.. bought her some chocs.. and she was like jumping ard.. omg. she is crazy. can u get drunk when u eat normal chocs?

then i met my primary badminton teammates on my way home todae. mi plus the otehr 2 guys are the singles of our sch. and we are not bad. seriously. both of them are qutie good now. but i quit badminton alr. and one of them, we used to play soccer together also. then when i tok to them.. really jus have so much memories and u will realise time really flies. really.. we all actually can rem alot of things even if its so mani years ago.. some minor details also. sometimes i can have dinner with my pri sch classmates, the whole class.. but i dun have anythign to tok to them. and todae.. jus the 2 of them.. we were below my house.. toked from 11 to 12.45. jus standing there. jus so much momories and things to tok. same sports. same passion. yeah. like how we used to like to compete with each other.. some funny strokes tt we like to do. and also tok abt the ppl we play with last time.. and how they have changed.

and im glad i had quite a good childhood. i think childhood is really impt la. at least now im exposed to so mani things b4.. and things dun shock mi anything. i hang out with soccer ppl.. gansters.. and alot of type of ppl. we tok abt how the soccer ppl change.. some go gym (like mi.. haha) and become very big alr.. some went to prison again.. and one died in prison. think fight inside or sth. really knew alot of ah bengs and all. now i dun hang ard with them anymore of cos.. but they are nice memories.. im exposed to all kinds of ppl.. and luckily i din turn out too bad.

one other thing.. after getting another 2 trophys todae.. then were thinking.. its not abt being arrogant or wad.. but its somehow like pride.. i really have alot of medals and trophys.. i really have no more space now. im stacking them up. cant place side by side anymore. think when i get older and look bad.. i can maybe rem how i get those medals.. wad i did.. and i can be proud of myself tt i once fought for something and wanted and tried to be very good at it. its some satisfication. tt u din waste ur life away perhaps. i've achieved sth at least. i think if ppl see my bro and me medals and trophys addd together.. its really alot. maybe its ego or sth.. when ppl tell mi" wah i went to the person's house and saw he or she got so mani medals.." i dun sae directly but will be thinking.. can tt person get more than mi? if they can.. then they are realy good. its nto me being arrogant.. but track is my passion.. my pride.. and i've nv regretted doing wad im doing. everyone should have aims and dreams.. living a life aimlessly.. without knowing where to go and wad u wan to do... could perhaps be as good as not living one..

no subject

2005-04-27T19:03:00.000+08:00

hmmm...

ok.. nothing much happened but jus blog something to stop it from rusting. so in the end i din run sports dae... the individual events are almost over. i din wan to aggravate my injury, so dun wan to risk it la. so would jus give this year's sports dae a miss. and dunno wad are the prizes this yr also.. they nv sae anything. and dun think its anything too big. so good lor. then wun be too disappointed.. since i won shoes and alot of stuff from last yr's sports dae alr... so i should not be too greedy.. =P

yeah and my leg is recovering i think.. almost ok alr. pray tt i dun pull again.. really dun wan tt to happen. yeah. and we went to daren's house again! haha. and now.. his dog can recognise us alr.. the dog nv bark at us anymore.. and we can actually touch teh dog and it wun bite. lol.. but i still haven touch.. no balls.. scared it will suddenly open its bite and give mi a good bite. no way man. i dun wan to lose a finger. but its cool.. the dog is really cute. there extra long holi this wk.. labour dae.. so i think we should go his house again! haha. mahjong is fun lah. still not sian of it.. it jus gets more and more interesting.. and gareth also won si shan yao... 13 tiles. waiting for one more tile onli lor. omg. so scary. and we were saeing.. if he can really get.. even if we have to pay less money.. we are all willing to pay the maximum to him, which is $6.40 per round. cos its so so rare.

its been quite busy recently la. everyone like very stressed.. so mani things to do. sometimes we should all relac one corner.. and not think so much. jus like todae outside sch.. while walking out with my fren.. got his guy.. from vj apparently.. started jumping ard and sae things like.. "i've finished.. i dun have anymore responsibility.." he was going to teh ppl ard mi and telling all of them abt how happy he is.. really like someone insane.. then he skipped and jumped off away like a lil gal.. at 1st i tot he knew the ppl ard mi.. but after he was gone.. everyone was laughing and tokin abt him.. think he is really mad. vj too stressful alr. everyone going mad. relaxing man.

fed up

2005-04-18T21:31:00.000+08:00

Fed Up

my leg is not recoving well. cos i pulled it again the other dae. now its quite pain. damn sad, its a mistake i made. will not have the glory or prizes tt i will get by winning the individual champion in vj alr. no one will noe mi.. sad. and i jus wanna make a history.. some records tt i can still look back on when i get older. but sad. dun think i can now. nto going to run.

and abt the being caught thing, todae my classmate wrote fake name and got caught too. then he was sent to the pe hod. stupid tan yew hwee. lucky i was onli sent to vice principal. the stupid tan is damn irritating one. do alot of stupid things. now i see my classmate's name outside the pe department. think he got to report to them everydae or sth. wah.. im quite lucky actually.. but i still wanna run sports dae!!!! hai......

Kena caught la

2005-04-17T13:29:00.000+08:00

Kena caught la...

actually i think there are mani things to blog. but i cant rem much. so jus blog some things. 1stly.. hoho i got band 1 for project work! damn happy la. cos my whole grp got one and i was liek the last one to be called.. so if all others got 1.. and i get 2.. will be damn sad. but lucky i got one too. vj did damn well.. onli 8 ppl in thje whole sch got band 3. and its qutie cool.

and then. 2 wks ago when i hurt my hamstring its the whole left hamstring. but a two dears ago i pull again la! freak. but luckily its onli the part of the hamstring. still.. its bad enough. sad man! and sports dae is next wk la. i hope i can recover and do well enough. but i figured i wun be 100% fit. so lets jus hope tt a 90% fit mi is good enough to win. scared la.

went to sch's music fest. its like a talent time. everyone compete for singin and dancing. and its really nice. better than last wks. anywya.. the tics are damn hard to get one. but lucky got connections get from frens. then some ppl who do not have mani frens all din get tics to go. sad case. but tis really not bad. the solo vocals are good. and a conclusion make from music fest.. indians are somehow every popular. think they are jus funny. and they can dance and make ppl laugh. this yr's winner is a black dance grp. last yr also. but they were really good.. haha. mei xian who sang the theme song for jack neo's movies. like home run and i not stupid.. won the vocal solo. i think her.. think she is very good. tho there are debates tt the other gal shld have won.

and one more thing!! cannot be late alr la. angry la! tt dae went late.. then the guard now smart alr.. after i worte a fake name.. he asked for my ic la. actually i think its jus a random check and im jus too unlucky. sad. then he saw tt i wrote another name and all tt. bring mi to see principal. hoho. merry christmas. kena scolding. but i jus look very apologistic..dunno how to spell.. but anyway.. then she let mi go. freak man. cannot be late anymore. now guard smart alr. then sian... rah!!

Physio

2005-04-04T17:08:00.000+08:00

Physio

anyway, no need to go to sch todae. tmr also dun need. they have chem pracs in sch. official A level exams. but dunno why they are giving us free daes. can do in the afternoon wad. but in any case, dun have to go sch. wed go for my physics prac.. 2 hrs. then finish sch. so basically this wk onli have 2 daes. damn slack. lol. stay at home do nothing. will try to study. cos slpet so bloody much todae la. 13 hrs? haha. damn pig. cannot stand myself. but i really like sleeping. haha.

ok lah. went for physio. and its like so pain lah.. press here and there. anyway my physio is from sji lor. omg. haha. my dentist also from sji. but i dun really go to him anymore. yeah. sji is jus so great la. haha. =) everywhere also can find sji ppl. and he press mi one part.. damn pain la.. ard the hip, jus beside the hip bones at the sides. and he gave mi a super stretch of my hamstring.. when tis already damn pain.. then i grab him.. to show tt its damn pain la. then he was like.."hey..why u touch mi? dun touch mi leh?" wah.. the way he sae till like im damn gay.. wan to take the chance to grab him like that. haha.

went again todae.. i was supposed to do some jogging to see how my leg is then report to him.. but i din.. cos i din noe suppose to do. so he not happy la. tehn dun wan to do physio for mi.. ask mi to do some exercises inside the place. lol. then i told him i jogged across the road tho.. when i jaywalk.. then he wanted to slap mi. hoho. ok.. should nto slack these two daes. will study soon. =)

Ouch

2005-04-01T20:43:00.000+08:00

Ouch

it had been a thousand years since i blogged. alrite.. shall not slack. but actually dun qutie noe wad to blog alr. cant rem wad happened tho there are some thigns worth blogging. nvm. but i will always rem mahjong. hahaha! finally stayed over at daren's house. after a long long time. and saw his dog.. haha! daren was complaining his dog dun bark.. but see us.. bark like shit la! lol.. but the dog so lil and so cute. it will bark and bark.. then when u go near it.. it will run away.. and bark from a further dist. cos the dog scared.. lol.. but still wanna bark. so cute.

and saw leang's body. not bad. i like his lats.. good v shape. i wan lats! lol.. im a skinny shit. =/ and i ate prata after i long long time!! jus started to like the thomson prata again. =) and i pass my maths test for once.. dun have to go for remedial for one term.. and i actually got quite high. cos the paper was pretty simple. haha. not tt im tt smart. but yeah.. 50/60. =) happiness. but think after mid yr.. going to fail again and join teh remedial grp. lol.

and i pull my hamstring yest. its not the pain tt bothers mi too much. its tt there are competitions coming up. and i need to train. now i dunno. damn sad la. sports dae coming up. really need to win and maybe break the record. now i really duno. super sian. but it wasnt tt dae.. cos i still could walk after i pulled my hamstring yest. and immediately went to see doctor at sports council todae. ate some tablet. think now alot better. can walk almost normally alr.. good good. haha. and stupid tan yew hwee wanted to call doctor for mi la. ok.. actually he meant well.. and i should not be so mean. but then i realised i can actually go for free physio and everythin at sports council. cos im in the track association. sorta spore junior team member... some rubbish shit la. but im quiting track soon anyway. but for now.. can enjoy free physio and all. al free. if i go outside doctor.. minmum 100 bucks.. damn sian. i jus saved abt 100 bucks. haha. tmr mornin going for physio.. hope i can wake up. haha. ok.. hope everythign goes well.

next wk mon and tues chem spa.. means i got exra long wkend. no need to go sch. i dun take chem. sch starts on wed. lol. and i got tics for some quite popular concert in vj. not bad. cos alot of my frens got the tics from balloting.. and i din get.. so jus buy from them. haha. alrite.

New Term

2005-03-21T20:52:00.000+08:00

New Term

hmm.. the holis have been a busy one. no tiem to update also. yes. ppl like matt.. whole dae so free jus wanna read ppl's blog, stop complaining. haha. anyway, iw as really studying. at least mayeb not studying, but i caught up all of the work tt i missed during the term. theres a few daes tt i really sit down at nite and do my work. quite impressive alr. haha. and went gareth's house to play mahjong one dae.. and he won quite abit la. mi and daren lose 20 and 20+ bucks to the 2 players. and theres this round.. gareth see us like very sad.. and he already has like maximum tiles, has 5 flowers.. so if he win again.. alot more money.. then we will get more sad. so he was like.." ok la.. see u all so sad.. i tell u all i waiting for 3 and 6 wan, dun throw. but if i get it myself.. i cannot do anything" and in the end.. he really got it himself. we are fated to lose to him. noe wad he waiting alr we still lose. sian.

then had competition for the last 2 daes.. wkends.. sph relays. my sch did alrite la. i ran 4x200m. got 1st. had a really good chat with my coach.. about vj.. how sucky it is and everything. everyone is not happy with the head of pe la.. some stupid idiot. even the teachers are not happy. always fight with him one. some go and confront him and asked to be transferred out. cos cannot work with him. his soccer players are like kings la.. cannot touch them at all. half the soccer team is track ppl. so when we ask for the soccer ppl to run competition for us.. he will not be happy.. gvie some attitude.. sae the team had a game 2 daes ago.. very tired.. cannot run. and we rest for less than 1 dae and got to run again.. we can do it.. but soccer ppl, who are suppose to be damn fit.. cant even recover in 2 daes.. maybe they need abt 1 month to recover after a match. one month play one match. fucker noe.. teh players and the pe head. if soccer is so impt.. then he shld jus close down all the ccas in vj.. let all 800 boys in the sch to play soccer.. can flood the whole field.. then he can choose the best 20 from the 800.. and dun compete in all the other competitions. becos the soccer ppl cannot run, we lost the overall champion for the competition yest. if not like we dun have runners, its cos of some ppl and some stupid reasons. if soccer is the most impt sport in teh world.. then let him be man. bring a soccer ball into the coffin with him.

its not onli yest.. last yr we lost the most impt nationals schs overall title, cos one of the soccer player. who is a jumper.. din jump. cos of dunno wad shit reason. then we lost the title. cos the soccer ppl jus dun take part. give up and them. always shout at guys.. always flirt with gals. so damn fake. shout at ppl as if they come to vj jus to take pe.. as if pe is their life.. must get a A star for pe when they leave vj.. shout shout shout.. like a bloody dog. he is a big part of why i have nv liked vj.. pissed.

Holidays

2005-03-11T23:22:00.000+08:00

Holidays

hmm.. finally holidays. but its like so fast la. surely come and go damn quickly. so much homework to do. but its actually some thigns tt i din do during the term. sch reopen got exams also. maths.. cos i keep failing.. promos fail.. repaper still fail. now got another test. still fail again i also dunno wad to do alr. lol. but i will try to study la. yup . =) holidays will be damn busy.

todare suppose to go daren's house. so excited to see leang's body.. and to play mahjong.. keep losing the last few times.. need to win back money lor. not happy. and can eat thomson prata... quite nice lor. yeah. and can play with daren's new dog.. going to pee on everyone i think. haha. when is the stayover!! quick!!

next wkend got competition. relay.. but its like not my thing since i came to vj. vj got too mani good sprinters.. im rank like far far down la. damn sian. dun think im going to run. but i will go and support. haha. last time sji always run.. always win so mani medals lor. now dun even get to run. =( but its ok.

i wan to complain. j1 dun need to do cca! no need the stupid points! no need to do cip! freaking shit! tmr i still need to go for cip la! got some cross country competiton. rah! i wan to bite ppl reaa.. the new black minister of education not bad. made some good changes.. shloud have him earlier. then i dun have to do cip! hmmm.. oh did i sae we have a minister of education? think i made a mistake. =)

Deep Thoughts

2005-03-04T23:58:00.000+08:00

Deep Thoughts

i was reading thru eve's blog and my own blog. then realise some things. think its jus a natural characteristic of humans. and its quite interesting. we tend to complain alot abt everything, when things are not going our way. and when things are going fine.. we cuold be saying like how lucky we are and everything.

for example, in relationships, when a couple is together.. they will sae things like they will nv part each other, how much they love each other.. theres no way they are going to leave. and maybe a good fren. like how good a fren teh person is. but when the couple break up, or when theres some problem between frens, then u will start to look back. and u will realise tt.. last time u used to sae u were nv goign to leave the person. but now.. break up alr. so does it mean tt u were lying? or u jus cant keep promises? same for frens.. u will realise tt the person whom u tot is the best fren.. is actually not the best? ppl tend to like get blinded by the happiness they have, the contentment they have at a particular time, tt they forget everything else. or rather.. be too blinded to realise other things.

another exmaple.. theres so mani ppl tt sae.. they cant live without another person, and if they cant get the crush they wan.. tehy do not wan to move on. saeing things like the person is the only person tehy love.. they will not love anyone else. and if given another chance.. they will still love the same person. however.. if they actually move on and have found another person, tehy will realise how silly they were last time. not wanting to let go. yeah.. its jus so naturally for everyone to sae nice things to each other.. when they are happy together, but when things dun work out.. slowly u will realise tt the thigns you've said are so silly and sometimes empty promises? dunno.. i think its jus interesting.

anyway, got b3 for chinese. damn sian. vj dropped abit this yr. onli 50.6% got 3As and above. last yr got 56%. think will have at least half dae on mondae. yeah. anyway for chinese, my oral got pass la.. damn damn sian.. nv see pass b4 one lor.. last time o's if i dun get distinction is like damn sad alr.. and now.. pass.. not even merit. omg. dun think im retaking. dun care alr. jus damn sian. yeah.

Clara's place

2005-02-27T08:15:00.000+08:00

Clara's Place

hmm.. it was a tiring dae. and tell u all.. i have nv like really start a fire.. or help out much in anything during a bbq. im jus basically to slack to do it or its too smoky or something. so i will jus sit there and wait to be served. but yest.. wah.. i start fire then cook somemore la!! wad is this! i went to the bdae and be free labour! lol.. clara got labour fee? got reward? haha. kidding, dun need anything.

but its qutie hot and sweaty and everything. and have very black hands cos of the charcoal. temporarily lost my hand. omg! lol.. erm.. din really eat yest lah.. co sim like always there cooking for ppl la. actually i can start fire adn cook one.. jus tt im always so lazy to do. when do when needed. and i did. lol.. all the lil kids.. then all queue up and wanna get food.. then i nto ready.. nv give them.. like so bad like tt. all their innocent face. haha.

mi clara and eve take turns to cook la. cos onli got 2 tongs.. 2 ppl will work, then the one one feed the 2.. cos we all nv eat lor.. jus keep cooking. then i fed clara and eve.. really felt like a father at the moment. feeding ur children. then clara fed us after tt. now feel like baby. its really quite cool. will noe when u try to feed someone. sense to satisfaction. haha! its fun afterall.. but tired. yeah. went off quite late.. 11 like tt. but got home b4 12. cool.

ive gained 3 kg since i started going to the gym. not bad as i dun take any supplements.. and i dun wanan get too heavy also. cannot run. haha. so yeah.. jus nice.. still can gain 1 or 2 kg more. im near 68kg now. haha.been slacking abit.. nv go as often.. but still.. bodybuiding rocks. haha! ^5 to those tt agree with me.

yes, im updating

2005-02-26T18:14:00.000+08:00

Yes, Im Updating

hmm.. alrite, at clara's place now. eve's best fren. the bro got some bdae party. hm.. p6. so all the lil boys and gals. haha. so long nv bully ppl.. last time sji tt tiem always bully the sec ones and twos. tell them.. "hey boy dun run!" ten all got so scared. so fun.. but i shall not bully anyone todae. im in boon lay lor. end of the world.

ok sat.. last sat, went to sa funfair. nth mcuh actually.. but stil managed to see qutie a no. of ppl la. so mani frens in sa. yeah.. qutie nice.. but teh funfair was alrite onli. and the sun was like.. wahhhhh! practically melting la!! so hot la. then jus happened was wearing black shirt. freaking. haha. hmm.. stef sun went there later. then like created alot of commotion. din manage to stay. not very interested either.

ok then went for jts, junior treat senios, swensons, ps. was alrite also. din really mix with the juniors, its still like sticking to my own frens. even some of my own classmates also nv mix. so its like still the same old gang. not very good.. but dun care la. ot my own small grp of frens can alr. lazy to socialise. ok.. wen tto daren's house later tt dae.. slept on the bus on my way there la.. hten ended up in ang mo kio. wah.. sian.and at first.. supopse to have like 5 or 6 ppl going. in teh ned, all not going. and when i reached the house, onli have mi chun and max la. plus daren jus now for mahjong. and lost 10 bukcs to teh stupid daren tan. but its ok.. haha. got to ea prata again. so long nv eat. always got prata supper. and he got vodka from dunno whre la. and his house is like.. no soft drinks.. so we mix wad? mix apple juice.. and the vodka is wad favour.. is green apple favour.. so like apple juice wth aple juice? not very nice... pls dun try. haha.

oh then sundae eve had dinner with my family. my bro treat.. haha then my aunt and uncle also went. she nv really had dinner with my family before la. and nv did anyone la. so its like.. quite cool.. dunno. it means something? like accepting her alr? dunno.. its jus nice..

the rest of the wk is quite routine. nv much. jus going to sch and trnin. tehn catching up with my homework that i haven been doing. yeah. now not too bad alr. catch up abit. and yes matt.. though i onli have sch for 3 hrs.. and its 3 not 2!! i still have trnin and all. tired la!! u whole dae play with snow.. stop slacking la! anyway.. during maths lec.. there's this qn.. wad is the probability of someone being late for sch 5 times a wk.. then i was like thinking... for normal ppl.. its quite impossible.. but for mi.. its highly possible. aha. and guess wad.. this wk.. i was late for 4 times!!! wahah. matt not onli i have sch for 3 hrs a dae.. i go sch at 9am everydae. hohoho.merry christmas!! the new guard in the sch is always slping la.. i jus walk into sch he also dunno. oni got caught once. he somehow managed to stay awake. haha. and actually... guard... wad guard? theres no guard everywhere.. *wink*

Chinese New Year

2005-02-19T11:07:00.000+08:00

Chinese New Year

hm.. two weeks nv blog. haha. really have been so busy la. and i jus got pissed todae. i went to the bank wanted to get a card of my own from my account.. then queue so freaking long.. the people there are so slow. damn pissed already. then when im reaching my turn, then i realised that, omg, i forgot to bring my ic.. zzzzzz... damn sian. i queued so freaking long.. then i nv bring my ic. need to go again. later i go town. angry sia.

anyway.. chinese new year.. nth much la. jus normal. but this yr.. a few ppl decided to bao abit more.. so like not too bad.. 200+ from my usual 100+.. not bad already lor. yeah. happy enough. but i onli went out on the first dae. and the rest of the daes.. i spent at home doing something for valentine. and yes.. i cross stitched. omg..even i cant believe im doing it. i tot its not too hard.. but then i realised its the worst thing one can ever do. tis so time consuming and tiring.. omg. almost wan to give up. doin it is alrite.. its when u think u have done alot. then u realised u stitched the wrong color or wrong space.. then hoho.. merry chirstmas.. remove and do again!! haha. i swear i will not stitch for anyone ever again. unless its a damn small one. i shld love myself more than anyone else.. will not torture myself anymore..

spent the whole wk stitching too mondae also cannto finsih. then got to pon sch and stay at home and do. lol. pon trning also. but finall fisnhed. and on sat.. went gareth's house to eat. quite alot of dishes la. and like so mani ppl.. and gareth's parents bao everyone an ang bao.. cook so mcuh dishes.. so nice.. damn generous la. really thank them so much. then we played blackjack. won from money. so its a fruitful trip. win money. get ang bao. get dinner. hoho!!

this past wk is jus liek recovering from teh post cross stitch period, need to rest and trying to catch up with my hw. nv do lor. lol.. no time.. now will try to do.

ok.. going sa funfair later.. and then got my junior class in vj treating us, the senior class. ps swensons. hope its nice. haha. free food.. i sure will go. haha. ok.. will try to update soon again.

Lost

2005-02-06T21:28:00.000+08:00

Lost

hmm.. had some spring cleaning todae. like half of the house la. kitchen was in a mess when i woke up. then got to help and all also. now the walls and all look nice. shiny sia. lol. met up for mahjong yest. lost quite abit leh. seldom lose so much. but its ok lah. quite fun and all. jus like a gathering.

anyway. really busy these few daes. and chinese new yr coming. and then.. sth great happened. =) i lsot my k700i.. my phone. very well done. bought at 500. trade in value now still 1st catergory. 300. and it got stolen. very good. great theif. i put my phone in my bag. then left it in pe department.. cos its where all the trackers keep their stuff. and onli sports ppl go into the pe office. so i guess its our own ppl. dunno who. but well done. good great boy.

sch annouced for track ppl to meet in the morning. seldom got cca grp call for meeting in the monring.so got ppl go ask then now alot of ppl noe i lost my phone. all come and sae i so poor thing.. put inside pe dept also will lose.. hai.. everyone sae i poor thing also no use.. onli if they start to do some donations to me then got use. haha. i need money! rah! dun wanna pay another good phone anymore. at least for teh time being. k700i was realyl good enough lor. got alot of things. now everything also dun have. hai. nvm nvm. going to continue to be busy for the next wk. will do my stuff now..

mood for the wk: pissed

Funny

2005-01-31T21:44:00.000+08:00

Funny

todae im like quite moody. alot of things. and alot of work. got exams tmr and all. not happy. stress. cant get the things i wan. irritatin mi most. stomach ache also. unhappy dae! trning also lose the ppl. expected.. but still not happy.

erm.. anwya jus sth funny. i went to tiong bahru plaza to eat b4 i came home. then when i was coming down the escalator.. theres this butch and a gal. behind them was a i think p1-p3 little boy. then i was behind all of them. suddenly the boy ask the butch.."oei! u gal or boy ah?" lol.. i tot he was so funny. right in the front. so loud summore. then the gal turn over and ask him to keep quiet. after a while.. the couples hugged. then he lil boy went..."eeeeeeeeeee..........." very loud.. right into their face..! wahahha. so funny lor. i tot they going to turn ard and punch the boy. but they walked off. haha. interesting. =) lighten things up abit.

bigger

2005-01-30T20:58:00.000+08:00

Bigger

this wk had been not bad. not too stressful and the main thing is i got to see eve almost everydae. onli mondae nv i think. =) tts a very good thing. sch start still can see her. and im keeping up with my work. been quite hardworking nowadays. seriously. coming less and less online. =)

but anyway.. went town to look for some things and shop abit jus now. nth much. and cant get wad i wan. angry. not much time left. and i think.. im getting bigger.. cos my shirt are all getting tighter. seriously. all the shirts now abit tight alr. i take it as a good thing. means tt my bodybuilding programme for 2 months have been working. at least abit. cos i refuse to take protein powder at all. tts why wun grow so much. but yeah. natural food is still the best. =) going to get bigger. =) i dun mind if all my loose shirts are becomign tightfit. =P

Shall We Dance

2005-01-29T21:21:00.000+08:00

Shall We Dance?

hmm.. thurs trning was so tiring.. strap some 20kg weight to ur body. then pull and run. its like crazy la! run like 160m X 10.. then we complain tired.. then bargain with coach.. so he reduce to 9!! like got diff ah.. must as well dun reduce. lol. anyway.. its really not easy to pull anotehr 20kg with u. can imagine with im 20kg heavier. oh man. really cannot move. b4 trining.. my left calf alr like injured from tues trining.. but getting better.. then after thurs trning.. my right calf cramp.. hoho.. now both calves injured.. happy new yr. =)

asked eve to massage mi abit. i tot like she wun really noe la. cos its more like sports massage and all.. and gals normally cant do anything. or they have no strength. but surprisingly.. shes not bad lor. qutie shiok. can feel the pain.. which is good. massage still quite nice. yeah. underestimated her. shes not bad man. can do part time job. =)

watched shall we dance with eve todae. i wanted to watch tt when i sae the preview. and noe guys wun watch one. and noe eve will definitely wan to watch it. so jus nice.. go together. and wah.. its like a simple low cost movie.. nth spectacular.. but its jus so much love. see how they work for wad they like.. and how much they love each other. wah.. omg. its the movie tt i tried the hardest to not let my tears flow out. omg lor. the love for each other.. other movies at most feel abit touched, eyes abit watery. but this one.. i really tried so hard to not tear. can feel the tears coming out alr. so so touching. i wish for a marriage like that. anyway.. i think im too sissy. in a way, i admit. abit.. haha. but i did read an article.. tt saes.. guys shld be more like gays.. not tt they become gay.. but they learn the characteristics of gays.. to be more sensitive.. more emotional.. care more for ppl.. of both sexes. understanding. yeah. so its alrite to be abit sissy. =) haha. watch the movie, its not too bad, =)

Things are fine

2005-01-27T10:02:00.000+08:00

Things are fine now

hm.. yeah. things are fine now. im so glad. yeah. really would nto want anything to happen or i will really really regret. dun wanan lose anything. erm. anyway im a in the com lab in sch now. pon physics lecture. doing some econs essay and decided to blog abit. yeah. hmm.. thank whoever tt helps me in some way =)

hmm.. the past few daes for trnin have been tiring! freaking. its not like damn tired. its jus tt my legs cant take it. mentally still alrite. bu tmy legs have been aching for a some time also. yeah. this have been the most tiring wk of the yr i guess.. so far. haha. but on the bright side.. i think i've been like doing my work and all. not so much to catch up. or at least i pay more attention in class. so its alrite. =) not too bad la.

did cip yest. some stupid tally survey work. so tiring and waste time. but i need the cip hrs. no choice. onli have abt 30 hrs. we need 80 for jc. so mani more to go. sian. the paper work.. its some survey abt some programme in the centre for students parents and all. the students are like primary sch. so the thigns they write are quite funny. out of pt and all. i rem one guy.. p4 i think, when asked like the last qn.. wad improvements can be made to teh programme? then he said he wanted programmes like.. "how to become so tall?" "wad buses to take when i wan to go anywhere" "how to read the words in the books" hahaha. so funny lor. little kids. so cute. how to become taller.. lol. kiddy mind.

been able to see eve for the past few daes. been very happy and all. we will have dinner together after my trnin. and yeah. so its not bad. when she goes home from work she will have to pass by my house.. so she can jus drop by. then i can buy food for her. quite nice and neat. =) yeah. contented.

ok.. need to do my physics pract now. lessons starting in 10 mins' time. stop slacking! haha.

=/

2005-01-22T18:30:00.000+08:00

=/

sth bad happened. i pray tt things will turn out well. its my fault seriously. where is the faith and trust tt i always sae? if things goes well again, i am sure i will trust fully. its so silly of mi to think otherwise. so so silly.. i will nv forgive myself if sth really happen.

tiring

2005-01-21T01:27:00.000+08:00

tiring!

erm.. actually nth much. but jsu to blog so that everythin wun grow cobwebs or sth. yest plucked weeds that are growing on the side of our sch track. cip! jc need 80 cip hrs in 2 yrs. so mani! crazy. onli have 20+.. so like need to desperately find things to do.. so we went to pluck weeds! haha. pluck until hand pain lor. but we like sit down there, and chit chat onli mi mary and ivana. then tok abt relationships and all. ivana said she will marry the next bf..so must noe the person really well. i was thinking, how wld u noe the person is the one for u? being jus frens and being together.. u can see more things and different thigns and u may find out things tt u wun really like abt the person? u can compromise after tt.. but its not a long term solution. yup. then they asked if i have gf.. and how i noe her.. all tt. and ask if i think i have now found the right one. i think i did. =)

todae's trning is so tiring! 10 X 100m with 30 secs rest. very disappointed with myself. i went fast for the 1st six. then on the 7-10.. i really cannot move alr lah. slowly from 1st few become the last few in the grp lor. liek really sad. i think i nv push enough. im always lidat.. everytime when i feel really tired, and my legs cant move.. i dun wannna run, wanna give up. tts why i hate long dist also. but im really sian with myself. i cld have done better. but maybe i tried, but jus cant move. i dunno. i will hope to try harder nexxt time..

this wk is tiring.. dunno why. burning out abit. always very tired in sch. this wk got long holi. lucky. can rest and do work. =) tts abt it. eve is clubbing now! rah!

Chinatown

2005-01-16T16:19:00.000+08:00

Chinatown

omg. i went there jus now. cos eve have been posted there a few daes ago. we went to play pool then i send her to work lah. and its like.. sooooooooo crowded!! rah! omg lor. all the orchard crowd is moved there. so mani ppl bringing their children out. wah! cannot even walk. anyway.. went to see her at work. and chinatown is like so messy! everyone jus take the shirt and throw here and there. so i helped her lor. to pack up. 1st time i help her. haha. anyway, i think can be a promotor lor. i quite like packing up. all u do is jus pack, give ppl wad they wan. so easy. lol. when things are so messy or sth.. or when the floor is dirty, and if i clean up and all, i will get this sense of satisfaction. like ive achieved sth. haha. from so dirty to so clean. will be quite happy one. haha. so i think, if i be the promoter, quite ok wad.. jus fold and fold clothes lor. so interesting. =P

anyway, play one game of arcade.. then the change token lady is kuku la. quite old alr so like nvm.. dun wanna sae anything. hmm.. i gave him 60 cents la. cos no 10 cents. tehn i suppose to get a token back and 10 cents change. so i was like see if she will give mi change.. then i said "i gave u 60 cents" then she said.. "no, tt boy gave mi 60 cents.." then i said again.. "no i gave u the 60 cents" then she repeated.. "no, tt boy gave mi the 60 cents" i was like wadeva.. haha. its not like i realy need the 10 cents or i will die. but she is so stubborn. lol. refuse to listen to me. abit kuku. not happy. haha. but its ok la.

not a big thing. jus tt.. we are not always right.. we need to listen to ppl sometimes. =)

rah! im back!

2005-01-16T01:00:00.000+08:00

Rah! Im back!

hohoho. finally got time to blog. yes matt, though i have a very slack timetable, but i still have trning and all. come home very late. so tired also. how to blog? onli tt in bet i can rest la. so not bad. can slp b4 i train also. wasnt able to do tt last time. =) and toking abt repapers. i passed physics.. and failed maths by one mark. stupid. haha. but still dun have to go for remedial. so its ok. =) sch is tiring!

went for beach games tt dae.. then jus see see ard la. then went to cycle with shu wen and sandy. sandy dun wear shorts inside the skirt. which i tot was nto very normal. cos all normal gals wear shorts inside the skirt? haha. so i had to cycle with long pants! no shorts! rah! haha. but nvm. wen and shu dunno how to cycle. so we got 2 double bikes. quite fun la. i took shu. we quite efficient. bette than wen and sandy la. cannot even move. yeah. on the whole. quite fun la. very long nv cycle. since last yr cycle with ivana and all near promos tt time. they mad one. keep cycling when tis near promos last yr.

one fine dae. i was queuing up buy a drink. then the shop is closing la. so teh auntie like.. wad u all one? hurry place ur orders. then she was lookin at mi when she said tt. so of cos i ordered la. then the gal in front of mi haven order.. i din noe. so she turn to mi and said.. erm. "i think i have not ordered".. tehn i was like wadeva.. keep quiet. then the bf beside her said.. "oei u dunno how to queue ah.." wah! tt got mi pissed. the bf think he like damn cool wanna protect the gf. then try to speak english. like he very good. i took like 10 secs of sth to calm down. to settle whether im goign to fight back. then i decided i cannot take it. so i went..erm.. "wah.. so polite of u." he like din hear. so i repeated. then ignore mi again. the gal was abit like scared liao. then i turn to her.. "so u dunno how to order when the aunite tell u?" then she dun even dare to look at mi. freaking pissed. when the guy said dunno how to queue ah.. i shld have turned to the gal and sae.. u dunno how to order ah? lol. sure fight. anyway when i tok back.. i was preparing for a fight liao. damn pissed alr. but wanna quarrell 1st also no chance. they nv tok back. so i jus stare at him and walk away. he was abit taller than mi, maybe bigger. but heck la. not scared. dislike ppl who try to act cool.. probably in front of gf. then so super rude summore. omg. think he king. anyway, my bodybuilding is not for nth one lor. can protect myself.

then went gym todae.. jus sth i tot is funny. got these 2 quite fat ppl la. then they finish liao. changing in the toilet. they saeing to each other.. "hey, we really have a long way to go.." toking abt their body la, cos they quite fat. then they keep complaining la damn tired. then this guy sae.."wah i cant move my hand" then he tried to wear his shirt, cannot move hand, then need to ask the fren" hey, im serious and can u come give mi a hand? put my hand into the shirt" haha. i tot tt was funny. think htey really train very hard. till cannot move. anyway, its really not to laugh at them or wad.. but seeing them lidat. im smiling.. cos,, they noe they are fat. and they live to reality la. then sae they have a long way to go. encouraging each other to do the workout. come together. its jus sth nice. having an aim. achieving things. doing it togetehr with ur fren. its jus a very nice feeling. doesnt mean cos u are not good at sth then jus give up totally. they set a good example. they noe they are fat.. so they are tryin to do sth abt it. yup. for the ppl out there.. stop slacking! do sth. tts including mi. haha. alrite!

end of repapers

2005-01-06T22:46:00.000+08:00

End of Repapers!

wah.. finally finish the physics paper. its supposed to be quite easy. to let us pass. i think it seasier, but i dun think its very easy la. hope i pass? i was looking ard.. then saw shu.. she was like damn focus.. reading the thing.. then i was thinking. wah she not bad la. mayeb she is going to pass. trying hard. and noe wad.. then i look properly.. she was focusing and reading the cover page la!! omg.. shes like daydreaming la. give up on the paper liao. stare at cover page. lol.

the next few daes.. back to trning. 3 straight daes of weights. omg. 1st dae is with james wong. if u all noe him, he is multiple sea games gold medalist. he damn big and strong. lol thrower. did some leg press thing. now my leg and butt still pain lor. after 2 daes liao. still pain. and yeah. orientation. i missed the junior meet senior thingy. our direct junior class will meet us la. but i woke up late tt dae. nv go sch!! omg so sad. they sae the ppl quite ok guys very toot. all from dunman, anglican, cat high. lol!! good for them. gals all quite ok looking. its a good thing. but i nv go, but my frens all msg mi.. sae boon!! our junior class got 6 dunman ppl!! lol.. tehy all noe i dislike dunman like hell. haha. but used to it liao la. all these stupid ppl ard everywhere. they sae go tthis chung cheng prom queen. saw todae.. ok onli la. yeah. not very impressed. lol. but doesnt really matter anyway.

ended sch ard 10+ todae. tmr ending ard 10. so jus watch orientation. todae quite interesting. better than the other daes. mass dance.. then cca walkabout. i played some badminton with xiuqing. i think im losing to her. die alr. cannot even beat gal. sian. my badminton is going down teh drain. cannot even move back properly. hai. then the j1s had station games. alot of water games la. quite interesting i wld sae. like i also wanna play. but quite dirty and wet. haha. and yes.. wet and dirty.. wahahah! and wet games. but half of the gals are wearing white. bu teh other half wore black.. quite smart. but not good for the guys. wahaha! i jus sit ard and watch everything. so fun. then the guys ah.. got to take out shirt and play this game.. to collect as much water as possible. then they gotta run abit.. and they are abit fat? and they run.. and shake like gals.. not a very nice scene la. i was sitting with my gal frens. then they were saeing la. tt the guys chest are bigger than some of the gals. wahaha. which is quite true anyway. so yup =)

todae quite interesting la. so yeah. =) really tired of 3 straight daes of weights. i need rest. tmr goign east coast to watch beach games. orientation! lol. cool..

New Year

2005-01-03T16:53:00.000+08:00

New Year

hmm.. abit lag. but happy new year! lol.. hahah. so busy these daes. nv even touch the comp for some daes. erm. ok 1stly, went out for countdown. but its not really countdown la. jus wanna meet up abit and go out. cannot stay at home la. hm.. nv go sentosa tho i think its quite interesting over there. but instead met up with my gang and we jus like walk ard.. went esplanade to walk ard. lol. this yr cos of the disaster, then like no fireworks, no nth. quite boring la. then like at esplande.. one min b4 12 they observe a min of silence, then suddenly without anyone noeing, the people jus.. 3, 2, 1.. happy new year. lol. so anti climax. and happy new year.. means wad? happy new year means time to hide from the foam war! lol.. all spray like dunno wad. lol. we all bend low and walk like kukus to avoid getting sprayed. hmm.. then we slowly walk to orchard.. passing by a food court to grab some food. then went to chris' house to stayover.

while walking there.. we were walking behind this grp of forces (ah nehs) holding the spray bottle la. then its very interesting. to stay behind and watch them spray at ppl. lol. =) they will spray at ppl who have the sprays in their hands. so tt they can retaliate and spray at each other. lol!! or they will spray at some gals. so funny. then those couples.. if get sprayed, the guy will like shout la.. like scold the "forces", trying to protect the gf? hahah. act cool. but relax la. new year.. get sprayed abit wun die la. have fun wad. yeah.. relaxing.

at chris house no live entertainment.. lol!! but its ok. got 1 litre of jack daniel's.. hoho. i ask chris to pour for mi. then took a few glass.. after tt still take some shots. then went to slp. its not tt i drank alot. i was still ok.. seriously. but the next dae.. i jus dun feel good la. go home.. stomach stil feeling lousy.. so i decided to force myself and puke everythign out. using the put-ur-finger-inside-ur-throat method till u puke. lol! erm.. felt better after tt. i shall not drink for a long time liao. new yr resolution. and to try to study hard. lol..

actually this yr.. yeah. resolutions.. study hard (tho its the same every yr and nv seemed to have worked).. bodybuilding. need to get bigger and hopefully nicer body. train hard for track..possibly my last yr running competitively. treasure my frens. spending time with the ppl ard me. and of cos with the piggie. yr 2 alr, need to turn over a new leaf. i'll try la.

anyway, jus finished maths repaper todae. will have physics tmr. todae's one, dunno can pass anot. abt same as promos la. sian. lol.. and tmr's.. no confidence. will see how. and anyway.. yr 2 timetable is so so slack when u drop one sub. omg. my average day ends ard 12.40. and still have 2 or 3 breaks in between. average dae 3 and a half hrs in sch. one dae onli have 4 periods. and if i pon, then its even more la. lol! means excluding the break.. if i chiong all the way, 11.30 end sch everydae. omg. like going kindergarten. so much better than sec sch and primary. lol.. becoming as slack as matt. i love yr 2. after 1 yr of chinese and project work in yr 1.. now no need to do liao. oh and 5 dae wk means no common tests for us. 1st batch. means life is even slacker. tiemtable slack, no exams summore. i give up. vj is one of the slackest sch ard. other sch.. 3 subs still end ard 3 or 4.. i dun understd. lol.. =)

ok.. will try to study. will do some reflections perhaps, for 2004. when i have time.. see how. lol.. =)

Holis are ending!

2004-12-29T01:29:00.000+08:00

Holis are ending!

oh christmas.. erm. actually everyone like din wanna go out la. everyone jus wanna stay at home. but liek once a yr.. i cannot take it. cannot stay at home and rot. so i called daren and chun la. ask them to come out. haha. good frens. they came out! haha. nth much to do in town. so we jus watch a movie then ask chris to join so we later can stay over at his place! lol.. erm.. anyway. the roads were so crowded.. everyone spraying the foam thing. i swear its not fun at all. got this woman selling the spraying thingy. then she was looking at this couple.. shouting to them. 2 for 6 dollars.. 2 for 6 dollars.. then the couples walk away.. and the woman follow behind and shout summore.. then the couple walk away again.. then the woman jus.. 2 for 6 dollars and spray right into the face of the couple. omg.. crazy woman. u dun buy from her she spray at u. lol! its really funny watching tt. and all the mats are spraying the foam all over the place la. u cross traffic light, reach the other end.. the mats will camp there and wait and spray at all the incoming ppl crossing the traffic lights. omg.

then we watch meet the fockers. its very funny. very nice show. worth it. and b4 we finish, got this transvestite, a "it" was standing at the escalator at lido there. posing lor. it is so freaking disguesintg.. booobs damn big. long hair. super mini skirts. everyone like looking, whistling, and take photos of it. lol. it was jus posing there dunno for wad. so mani pose summore. dunno waiting for who. haha. then chris needed like half an hr to do some we noe wad business before we go his house. quite cool. he noes town so well. lol.

the daes few daes were spent with eve. christmas dae had a nice dinner at marche. 1st time we been there together. ordered quite abit of food. eat till damn full. yeah. nice. then next dae, dinner at my place. so much food also. omg. played pool with her todae. yeah. few really nice daes together. dun need to elaborate too much. =)

erm, yest got sji 404 gathering at ben's place. ate abit then drink at his place. he jus got his new supply. yeah. abt 10 ppl went. which is quite good alr considered 1/3 of our class is filled with scholors and they are all overseas now. yeah. haha. and ming yuan drink until he drop dead la. lol. he can drink alot one but dunno wad happened to him. the drink is quite strong anyway. then he slp until really cannot wake up. and we like stripped him. took video. lol.. play ard abit.. shake him like mad also cannot wake up. then we all went to slp. and suddenly when its still dark. he came to shake mi like mad. to wake mi up. ask mi wheres my phone and wad video did i take of him! lol. hahaa. then i ask how u noe.. then he said.. when i woke up my pants were unbuttoned.. so confirm u all did sth. lol!!! he quite smart. not bad. haha. we made him touch himself and all tt. wahaha. but he deleted the video from my phone! =/ sad. nvm. lol.

and these few daes i have been studying. dun play play. tho i fall aslp very soon after i start studying. but todae got determination lor. will try to pass my exams! repaper. lol. i wil continue to study! yeah. =)

Merry Christmas

2004-12-24T11:10:00.000+08:00

Merry Christmas

hey hey, lol. so long nv blogged. now im back. cos nth much to blogged actually. this wk no trnin and stuff. so means i slpet longer and everything. started studying alr. dun play play. seriously. haha. teh past few daes have been normal. but yeah.. went to shop for christmas presents. and shopping with my cousin, my closest cousin. so long nv see her. so met up 2 daes ago, catch up abit, shop abit. so yeah. =)

anyway, gareth got this site wih alot of games, then i saw and want to play dl some games to play also la. then i said, u going to make mi fail my exams. now tt i found some new games and i will play. then he said.. u study also fail, nv study also fail, so at least now u play, u fail alr but will be happy rite? better than u dun play and fail. double sadness. omg! lol. he sae these kinda things. but its quite true anyway. =P all my frens always sae thigns lidat to me. mean! lol.

and yeah. im not good at buying presents leh. duno wad to buy. so hard to guess if the person will like it. but jus hope tt they do? yeah. christmas is jus ard the corner! its a time to show ur love ones tt u care. its a time to give! lol.. anyway, to everyone. Merry Christmas!

stayovers

2004-12-20T13:53:00.000+08:00

Stayovers

omg. dad tell my mom to scold mi cos i nv go home for 3 daes. now dad not happy, mom also not happy. lol. die. so tired now. so jus try to make it short. lol. 1st stayover. fridae. cheryl's party. at raffles the plaze. at city hall. its quite nice la. looks like swiss hotel tt i went for last yr's new yr. then when i go in, its like.. wah so mani ppl. 80% gals. omg! all the scgs gals. cannot take it. i was went in to eat and drink. then they were playing dunno wad stupid cards game la. din really wan to play but was forced to play. so mani gals. and so mani ppl i dunno. and some doing some gally tok. feel so outcasted. lol. so sian. lazy to interact with them also. so i jus sit there. anyway, when i stepped in, one gal alr like died on teh bed la. cannot drink then i heard she jus drank abit then collasp liao. her face like how red. got 2 other guys the face very red. but they are ok. the gal ah.. dman bad la. dun like it when gals drink until lidat. till cannot even walk. stupid la. anyway i drank abit also. then abit dizzy alr, im not a very good drinker. =P then hoho, eve called to sae she wanna meet mi for a while when i tot she was having coffee with the fren. cos i wanted to pick her earlier. then din managed to. so anyway. lihui see im not perfectly alrite.. so decided to walk mi down and wanna see eve also.. nv see b4. so we went down together. met her for a while. then got back. =)

went suntec to shop after tt. head dizzy still make mi run for the traffic lights lor! let i fall and get knock down by car lor. kuku. lol. erm.. suntec open until 1 sia. quite cool. teh gals bought things la. after tt we jus went back to slp. yeah. whole bunch of gals. onli one i think is pretty. lol.

erm. next dae met eve for breakfast. shopped abit. then rested at home. at ntie went daren's house. got enough ppl. but qutie boring. all not in the mood. so its jus like gather together la. we jus dl alot of comp games and play. those very old ones like mario. ninja turtles. alien vs predator. lol. watched the man u match, and i fell aslp half way. =P hahah! jus lidat lor.

and yest. went to pick chris up. then scared cannot go home. cos 12+ alr. take cab home 20+ bucks. lol. so we went to his house to stay. lol. we got total 7 ppl. then tot one car cannot fit. then noe wad.. he got 2 cars! lol. hired a driver. so tt he will have enough space to put his bike. took teh bike back to spore lor. lol. since onli zixin is not stayin over, and all the rest goign to chris house, so zixin sat on the mercs with the bike alone.. so tt the driver will send him home. then take the bike to the chris house. like big boss lidat. 1 person one car. lol! then got to his house. listne to his interesting life stories in canada. the interesting ppl. lol. and b4 we slp also got interesting show to watch! wahaha. dun think mani ppl will noe wad kinda show it is. =P btu i was too tired to watch. haha. jus slept. and now im back at home! i need slp! and need to study! rah!

track outing

2004-12-17T16:06:00.000+08:00

Track Outing

hmm.. track outing wasnt really fantastic but its alrite. jus to get together. with typically ivana-kind-of-thing.. we went changi to play amazing race. jus to ans qns on a paper. walk ard the place and find ans. and got some stupid roadblocks where we were suppose to solve some chim maths qn and one funny thing is to go near a security guard.. and imitate exactly wad he is doing, until he notices, and the whole grp has to do it and like surround him or sth. lol.. my grp din do.. too stupid. scared get into trouble. but duno if the other grps did.

and noe wad.. nic told its at 930.. then i went ard 945 la.. reach there.. no one there! i was thinking.. cannot be rite.. so i called nic, nv pick up. call ivana, then nv pick up. sian! tehn finally ivana picked up my call, i asked.. where are u all? then noe wad? she sae we are meeting at 1100!! omg.. i went 1hr plus early! freaking.. but i wasnt angry or anything. jus like.. wah waste time! cld have slept longer. but its ok la. since im forever late for everything. jus take it as a punishment for mi lor. ivana sae its to make up for all the times im late. 1+ hr to make up for everything. lol.. but they din do it on purpose.. all keep saeing sorry. its ok!! dun worry. lol.

so wad did i do? went to walk ard.. then went into a bookstore. hoho! interesting. read men's health. read the sex part and bodybuilding part. 2 very interesting topics. hahaha. =D then got this bk i think its called 69 ways to improve sex life or sth. haha. i actually opened it and look then got alot of pic of different positions and other stuff. jus flip thru. its in chinese.. so i din bother reading the content. jus see the pics. i hate reading chinese. so tedious. dislike chinese compre! and when ivana asked wad i was doing.. i said i was reading magazines.. and she can actually guessed wad i read lor. she said must be sex or exercise one rite? yeah. she good man! lol..

left early. going for cheryl's party later. think the trackers are at dao hua's house swimming now. playing polo. i actually wan to go. like playing with the team... playing games. quite fun la. but then it wld be difficult to go to cheryl's place. so yeah. so now im at home! yeah.. wun be back till tmr. yup. i really need to start studying more seriosuly. haha.

i gained weight!

2004-12-16T19:16:00.000+08:00

I gained weight!

lalala.. quite happy. im 65.2kg. i think it starting to increase. happy lor. wah yest do squats. 80kgs. its still not like super heavy. but i cannot take it alr. now legs like jelly. wah sian. hate to walk down stairs now. alwas after squats lidat. dunno why. but im enjoying bodybuilding. i think its cool. its an art. lol. to make ur muscles more define and all. hahaha. maybe im mad. but its really quite a cool thing.

went town early in the morning todae. trying to find cheryl her present. yest nite tried to find. but was really late alr. so din get to find anything. then todae went to shop ard found sth quite nice. from forever friends. hope she will like it. wah. and tmr goin to be out for the whole dae. morning going changi.. yes changi.. for some games. track outing. then at nite going to cheryl's party. i sure stayover one. so yeah. think shld be qutie interesting. got drinks and food. food is impt. bodybuilder needs a lot of food. hahaha! need to keep eating.

oh anyway, i read thru my blog history a few daes back and its like.. bring back memories. the things tt u were bothered by last time, the stress.. or the happy moments, funny moments. everythign jus bring back memories. and tts why i think blogging is a good thing. at least a couple of years later.. u can read the thigns u typed last time and think abt the old times. its a pretty nice feeling. good or bad. and see how u have grown, the changes u made in ur life. wad u have learnt. all tt. =) keeping a journal could be a good thing.

and learnt sth from matt. everytime when i tok to him on msn. i will sae.. yo! then he will reply.. "yoyo! bring some black motherfuking music u nigger boom boom bang boom" haha. he is mad, but its quite funny.. and tts matt kong for u. and i bought a present for him. some black shit. going to keep till when he comes back. then give to him. lol! 7 months..

fun trning

2004-12-13T23:58:00.000+08:00

Interestng Trning

yeah, todae we had like sprints and all tt. finally doing some sprints. the past few wks have been like doing long runs and endurance stuff to keep the fitness. now finally its time to work the muscles abit. 30mX6 120mX4 and ended with a 300m. not super tiring, and i like the 300m, its really a test of ur mental strength and ur endurance. cool. but anyway, alethia is back from camp, so come back to trning, means now i got ppl to bully liao. she go away for so long, no one to bully, damn sian. now happy. lol. good! but she din really train todae also. but nvm. lol.

then nic is jus a naturally clown. b4 we start the sprints, he sae leg pain, hamstring or dunno wad. so nvm. he dun do the sprints. he do easy running.. then i saw him do a few runs only.. then he go to teh coach again, and sae "cannot.. now my butt pain" lol!! leg pain butt pain. everything also cannot do. damn kuku. then our coach mr tang is like.. wah lao, wad u do yest? u try out all the special positions ah? now everywhere also pain. yeah, everyone noes he is quite close to wei yolk, so always tease him. quite funny.. coming from a coach. lol..

then theres this dunman gal.. yes dunman also got no bad ppl.. lol. she's vincent's cousin. shes trning with us alr. cross country. she caught my eye la. jus think she is pretty. those cute kinda pretty. then i told nic.. nic also sae shes pretty. then we keep teasing each other, like.. "stop looking!" lol.. then nic nv do one drill.. cos he sae leg pain.. then he stand one side.. pretending to check if we are doing correctly, but actually he is facing the gal.. and keep looking! lol.. joker! haha. actually nth much la, we are jus playing ard. anyway, teh gals also think she is pretty. lol.

hm.. i was studying in ymca, studied abit. then went to eat. and then walk ard abit, need to shop for clothes. going to get money soon. so yeah. then i decided to see how emerald is like now. so wanted to go and take a look.. then.. i met eve lor!! zzz.. like how coincidental. she was out with her frens todae, nto going to meet her. was goign to check the arcade then going home liao. then i met her there.. zz. fated. lol! so we went back together. had dinner. i was toking quite abit on the way back.. but she was quite quiet. seems like sth is bothering her. and i din wanna ask also. jus let her settle herself. dinner she spilled some thigns all over the place.. quite messy, and i think it jus added to her already troubled mood. so yeah.. she was quite quiet. and we noe sth is wrong, so we jus left soon after tt. nv blame her for anything. cos ppl have times when they feel stressed? or bothered? so yeah.. dear.. hugs! dun worry. will be fine. =)

Sundae

2004-12-12T22:58:00.000+08:00

Sunday

hmm.. sundaes are quite boring. so yeah. jus stayed at home and rot. i found a new interesting thing to do. html!!! for blogs. i think its quite interesting. but u need alot of patience. so slowly type in everything. then have to keep viewing and see if u got ur thing right. need trial and error also. asked ard, abt how to do. then everyone teach mi abit.. so now i can at least do those easy thigns liao. jus learnt yest but now at least can do sth liao. not bad sia. im nto so stupid afterall. but its quite simple la. hahha. then was playing this ping pong game online while doing a new blog. doing with eve. she noes i noe nth abt it. so wanted to learn and do sth to surprise her la. i slowly read and try out the difference if i change a number in the settings.. so i slowly change everything thing tt i think can be changed. wah. but quite interesting. so do and play ping pong until like 4am. then slept ard 5am. like a stayover lidat sia.

woke up onli at 2+ pm todae. lol. im a pig. yes i noe. jus slacking ard at home. play with html again, then went gym. wah so long nv go liao. and my weight dun change leh. i think got prob. but i think i look bigger. jus abit. but why is my weight still the same? weird. maybe it means its time to take nitro-tech. visit GNC. lol!! erm. yeah. tts abt it for this boring sundae. nv study todae. shit. need to do sth. getting scolding from eve. die. i also wan to pass one leh. will start studying again soon.. lol..

mahjong!

2004-12-12T01:38:00.000+08:00

Mahjong!

wow, finally got to play mahjong todae. after a long long time. i wanted to go to teh gym b4 the mahjong session, but i woke up late. so if i go for gym, i'll be like an hr late for mahjong, so i called to inform the ppl 1st. then daren is like not happy la, scold mi and refuse to tok to mi lor. sae im always lidat, always late (tho its true) but he sae until so unhappy. so i abandon gym to jus go straight for mahjong.

ok.. suppose to go bong's house, but ended up in gareth's house, with bong calling in the morning to sae tt he sprained his ankle and cant make it for mahjong. its like.. Wah Lao!! cannot stand it. everytime last min back out. anyway so we have to find another player rite? then found shaun. and guess wad.. he can onli come like 2 hrs later. and means.. i cld have gone to gym, and still reach gareth's place in time, jus nice for mahjong. so wad did we do while waiting? we watched best bet! tt chinese 4d toto jack neo show. i love tt show la. full of hokkien. i love to hear ppl scold in hokkien. its jus so funny. watched halfway, then shaun came.. so we stopped to play mahjong.. i won some money =) then b4 we left, we continued to watch best bet. finish the movie b4 we leave. quite cool. i love mahjong, and tts especially when i win money. wahaha. fav game. =)

jus in time to pick eve up from work. we din noe where to go for a while, and she refuse to decide, she have been refusing to decide where to go for 2 wks. always i think. but todae i not bad, came up with a few ideas. but we ended up in suntec. ate crystal jade. and money won from mahjong comes in handy. =) then we hang ard at the fountain. i like the fountain, its quite a nice place to hang out at nite, jus chattin and looking at the shows.. the lightings thingy. dunno call wad. so yeah. and then guess who we met. ashley, shoshi kudo and gang. hoho. so coincidental. not bad. nv see shoshi for quite some time alr. so yeah. catch up abit. he said he might be going acjc. so yeah. good for him. =) haha. he is still not very tall. hmm..

trying to learn from blog stuff, have been testing ard abit. made my blog abit neater now. tryigng to learn, slowly... hm.. its quite interesting. =)

number game

2004-12-09T23:56:00.000+08:00

Number Game

went to cut hair yest then was bored la.. went to play one round of arcade. 50 cents i can play 1 hr. alien vs predator. cool sia. lol.. then went to study. yes.. i nv type wrongly. i studied!! lol.. then was so bored so decided to call ppl down for dinner. dunno wad dae issit man.. can buy 4d liao. everytime when i call ppl.. all trning, not free.. or dunno wad else. yest when i call.. everyone also can come down. so on man.. surprised. lol.. had dinner at far east, with chun and daren 2 hrs late. make everyone starve. haha.. but its ok la. dun worry. =) then we went to play my fav game after tt...

oh man.. i think im addicted to this game. instead of giving rose.. we decided to ask gal for number. and its darren eng to do it this time. hmm.. he is manages to ask a gal's no. in one hr, we will pay him. and if he fails, he will pay us. this game is fun la.. see how the person does it, and see the person walking ard.. dun dare to do anything. but the onli bad part abt this game is tt u have to walk ard with the person till he finds a target to ask for the number. so walking ard for 1 hr is not fun la! so tiring. summore i did squats in the morning.. thigh so tired.. so walking ard is not a very good idea. but in the end.. i won la. but chun and daren decided to to collect money from darren eng.. both are them are nice.. but im nto so nice. lol.. collected money from him. its my fav game.. walk ard 1 hr.. at least must gain sth from it wad.. win lose nvm.. walk then still win or lose, is quite dumb. nvm. so got a drink and went home. resisted temptation to go daren's house.. wanan go hoem and rest. so nv go. yupyup... cheryl they all ask mi to club todae.. i nv k? such a good boy. everyone applause pls.. thank u thank u. =)

ok la, wun throw u out of the window k? will keep u by my side. cos.. i really love u.. piggie tan.

mrt

2004-12-07T01:46:00.000+08:00

mrt

hmm.. my blog was quite messy, the template got prob and all. tts y i nv blog. but its going to be done soon. dunno how to do. going to ask fren to help. will start bloggin again. wanted to blog this some time back but nv.. so write now.

one dae while i was going to take the train.. i reached the station then i saw his guy sorta shouting at the station person la. the station people are suppose to serve us. i din see the incident, dunno wad happened, but the guy and the station person (its a she anyway) were quarelling. then the guy ask the woman to give him her name.. like he wanna complain la. he wanted her chinese name, cos he is nto really educated. dunno english. then he woman is like so freaking arrogant. noeing he doesnt noe english.. she said.. "oh.. my name is on the board at the back of the station, go and get it urself" then the guy said, " i wan ur chinese name, i dunno english" then the woman said, " oh u dunno english ah? too bad.. everything in the station is in english.. too bad.." if i wasnt in a rush and if i saw the incident and noe who's right and who's wrong, i swear i gonna help the guy and complain tt woman la! damn arrogant. assif she noe abit of english like so good. so u can discriminate ppl who doesnt noe english? ppl who are not as smart as u? nto assif she is very good also. i wanted to pt the middle finger and sae f**k u! stupid woman, so freaking arrogant jus cos u noe abit of english? and cos u work in the station? her job is to serve and help the customers la. not to fight with them and trying to act big la. from her arrogant face u can see tt its confirm her fault. she din quite dare to give the guy her name also. cant stand this type of ppl.. burden to the society.

ppl out there, hope u are not like the woman. jus because someone is not as well-educated as u are.. of a lower class.. or wadeva.. doesnt make u so special. the world doesnt onli have u.. not jus one person.. give a tot for others. everyone's equal. no one's so great.

Rose Game

2004-11-28T14:14:00.000+08:00

Rose Game

anyway, yest was eve's prom. went to see her and all. sent her for the makeup and stuff.. then while waiting i went borders k! so intelletual, so learned. wah.. cannot stand it. =) read 3 chaps of da vinci code. the idiot take the rope and whip himself till it bleed. to clear his sins. crazy!

then meet daren and chun after tt.. jus to meet up and walk ard la. shop abit.. then also walk with mi to look for flowers. not all tt easy to find. but found. even when im a guy, i think the bouquet is quite nice. so hope she liked it.

then ah..we were so bored and we happen to have a rose la. dun have to noe how we got it. then daren and chun was starting to sae challenge each other.. sae.. wad we going to do with this rose ah? give some gal? then they challenge see who will give. quite funny. since they dun gain anything even if they give a gal.. so they decided to bet money? hahah. so i suggested.. for the 2 of them. like if daren gives the flower away 1st.. chun will pay him 5 bucks? and vice versa. haha. im not in the game la.. but they still force mi to pay the winner tho im not playing. but i agreed la. for fun. so i will donate 3 bucks to the winner.. whoever he is. means the winner will win like 8 bucks or sth. then later.. chun and daren decided not to take each other's money and wld jus take my 3 bucks.. so now they team up to get my 3 bucks.. then they dun pay each other 5. then im like anything.. since i agreed. but then i added the rules of the game. jus like the movie "saw". every game must have rules. so the rule is.. we will walk from emerald to far east. need to give the rose to a pretty gal, preferbly ard our age. and she must accept the rose. so done, i will pay 3 bucks. if reach far east.. still nv give.. they will pay share 3 bucks and pay mi. hoho..

so started walking.. but ah. dunno why. dun have pretty gals ard our age leh. so no target. but not my prob. and those nto bad ones. all got guys ard them. we scared kena bashed up. so dun find couples. then no targets la. got a few average ones la. then they all dun dare. keep wanting to choose better ones. then reach hyatt there alr.. still dun wan to give. nv even ask anyone.. and even if they asked.. if the gal dun accept the rose.. they will still lose. and they nv even try at all. hyatt actually got some gals la. not bad. wearing dress and all also. but ah.. got big guys ard the. we scared. lol.. dun wanna make trouble. so thus.. walk abit more.. reach far east liao! hahhaa. it was quite late alr anyway. not mani ppl left in town. and so... the rose is still with mi. means.. im 3 bucks richer! lol.. actually its not the 3 bucks. its the game. damn fun! lol.. they suck la. walk teh whole bloody place still nv give. then jus now keep fighting with each other. but i have to admit. i wun dare to give also. hahaha. anyway.. we will play this wonderful game again soon. i will sponsor the rose and we will increase bet to 5 bucks, then 10 bucks and so on. until someone wins? then we find new game. lol.. so when are we going to play our rose game? tell mi in advance.. i need to buy the rose. =P haahha.

SJI Track

2004-11-25T17:32:00.000+08:00

SJI Track

firstly, will talk abit abt wen's bdae. went kbox.. parkway lor!! so far! but they all live there la. so nvm. its suppose to be a surprise party for wenx la.. a small one =) but nto bad. i went b4 wenx went. then like shu they all made everything. snacks and BALLOONS! all over th place.. not bad la. then got mask and all. quite funky. haha! then sing songs. chinese! lol.. i quit chinese songs some time ago. so those current one i dunno much. so jus listen. then b4 chun came, im like the onli guy la. got like 5 gals. then got duet ask mi to sing with them. siao! lol. i refused to sing then they got pissed. lalala. =) and got this gal.. hm.. her taste is weird. for me la. she chose those old old ones. tho i noe the songs cos i listen from young.. some is my mom's songs. but teh songs are really irritating.. and she picked all those type of songs. and shes like our age? i really dun quite understd. all chinese songs alr damn sian liao tehn she still picked those very irritating ones. wah! lol.. cannot take it.

sji track legacy.. the team we and mr low set up from nth.. is finally collasing. after mani yrs. achieving most of wad we wan. after about 7 batches of athletes. going for abt 8-9 yrs. think its abt time.. sad sad sad..

lets recall.. when we were in set one and two. i rem mr low will sit down with us. ask us hows life and everything. telling us the history of sji track. we were national champs a few times in the history, mani yrs ago. then came timothy yeo. who broke mani records in singapore. became a spore runner but quited a few yrs ago after one of the sea games i think. after him sji dropped again.. to nobody. till theres his guy, forgot his name. abt 4 yrs older than mi. he was talented, as stated by mr low, but has attitude problems? or got injured. din win anything in the end, but was very talented. there came alex teng, desmond ong and shafiq! shafiq is the most successful of all now. currently running for spore and studies wise.. he is getting scholarships for almost everything he applied for. tts how good he is. this batch of runners, 3 yrs older than mi. started winning.

mr low wld tell us.. when sji ppl compete last time.. we go into the track look at the acsi, ri ppl. looking at them, shouting out how big and tall they were, how strong they looked. even b4 the race. sji ppl wld have alr freaked out. intimidated by ppl.. frightening ourselves. but now we go into the track.. the reverse thing happens.. ppl will look at us as we walk and stare as we go for a relay race.. and sae.. look.. SJI.. i seriously heard ppl sae people.. "wah! we are in the same heat as SJI! die!" sth lidat.. all started from shafiq they all.

the 3 of them actually did not win anything. all got injured or sth happened in the last min. i was sec 1 then tho. i look up to them. they inspired us. they way they fought. uniting the whole team as one. we only won our 4x400m relay tt yr. then came seow zhixiang, michael lui.. mic was our best 800m 1500m runner ever. then came daniel nonis and phang xiao feng. 2 very impt ppl. they are really very good. 1 yr my senior. i leanrt the most from them. nv-say-die attitude. them, together with mic and zhixiang.. went on to break 4x400m national schools record for 2 consecutive times. theres when we started breaking records. =) then came salman, Hakeem, and me. the 3 of us all broke our individual event's record. with hakeem breaking virtually every record he come across in his 4 yrs. then came ashley john mark. nto very fantastic runners. but they made sure we still have good sprinters in our team. then came.. Yusof and wynner. yusof our best sprinter ever produced. breaking 2 individual records in a yr, very impressive. and wynner is 2nd best to him in his batch. after this batch, the last batch, we have Stefan. 7 batches of athelets all together. the runners now are jus simply not good enough. Stefan has joined the sports school, and yusof is joing them next yr. wynner is appealing out of sji. there are no more runners left when they are gone.. think its abt the end for sji track.. we have lsot everything. need to build every from zero again. like how we did 8 or 9 yrs ago. its not easy... i've played my part to build the team, gain our reputation, but now.. everythign is lost. we need to start everything again. its really very sad.. im grateful for sji track. without them, i wun be who i am, i wun noe wad i wan. i wun noe the satisfaction i will get when i achieve wad i fought for.

2 most memorable moments. both happened in sec 3.. when i broke the national schools record for 100mh in the heats. but fell in the finals. was really devastated when i fell, but at least i held the record for a while. 2ndly, its my 4x400m record with xiaofeng, nonis, and salman. i will always rem them. and the way we fought. 3 very talented runners. thrashing everyone from all other schs. one of our proudest moments. =)

I love SJI.. =)

Saw

2004-11-20T20:12:00.000+08:00

Saw

nth much happened yest and todae. but went to watch saw yest. wanted to get tix.. then was waiting for wenwen to come. then he called us like jus 20 mins b4 the movie and tell us he watched the movie alr. wah! then got to change. so i suggested saw. tho i din noe wads it abt. lol..

and this freaking movie.. is damn gross. everyone trying to kill each other. killing other people to keep themselves alive. got all the gross scenes la. and jus imagine someone holding a knife and chop into another person's stomach jus to get a key from the stomach.. wah! cannot stand it. quite a nice movie afterall. quite liked it. alot of twists. guess whos the mastermind. cool.

oh yah.. wenwen is saving money like siao. then like damn funny la. partly cos of bodybuilding also. then he brought tuna to eat in the cinema. his dinner. save money.. plus healthy. not bad sia. then the way he tok and scold is damn funny la. "you dumb fuk!" lol.. sounded damn funny..

o's over.. well done everyone. go out and enjoy urself. going to see who's coming to vj. wld be interesting. alrite.. tts all for todae.

Chalet

2004-11-18T22:51:00.000+08:00

Chalet

wow.. i think this is going to be long. went gym b4 i went for the chalet. quite interesting inside. got the veteran ppl chit chating.. discussing abt the workout and other things in hokkien! i like to hear ppl toking in hokkien..its a very interesting language. quite fun leh. so i jus walk ard listening to them. met eve after tt.. she made some meatballs. its really nice. good enough for a simple me. tho she tot its onli alrite. and will u pls stop paying for me?! nono! i'll pay urs next time!

went chalet.. changi la! end of the world man! near the village. apparently sji ppl are in some chalet nearby too. but i din go and crash. no time. saw them at changi village when having breakfast tho. erm.. 1st dae. had bbq for stacy.. she's leaving our class alr. but wasnt very sucessful. fire all not very good. and not alot of food. lol.. not everyoen came also. on the whole still ok la.

then we got hungry. so go out and have supper. ate prata. =) so long nv eat. then went to buy drinks. brought back.. and when we went back into the chalet. guess wad we saw.. a broken egg outside the toilet.. but we dun have any eggs? which is really far from the window. so its not very easy to throw in from outside. and the toilet is at level 2.. plus quite a distance from the window. distance plus height.. not easy to hit the toilet. so we got abit scared? lol.. then we found out. other units also have eggs outside the toilet there. unless the person is really so good.. wun miss any shots.. or issit sth else? lol.. scary place. but its really dark and ulu there. so all dun dare to bathe or sth. or they bathe together. hahaha. so i slpt on the floor beside the gal's bed at the 1st level.. cos i dun wan to slp alone upstairs. lol.

oh b4 tt.. when we reach the chalet after the supper. the guys clean up the place la. cos its so bloody dirty.. ppl walking ard with shoes. so we decided to clean up! wah. all the guys do la. we got no mop. so jus cloth and our hands! wah! so diff to clean. labour work. all the gals sit there and chit chat.. not bad ah? zz.. but quite nice when its cleaned up. sense of satisfaction.

the next dae was boring actually.. went changi bench park in the morning. mani of us bathed b4 we went out la.. then when they reached the bench.. started pushing everyone into the sea. so.. dirty again! gals.. hai. i din join them. and so mani of the gals are wearing white shirts la. then all totally wet.. and yeah.. hai.. haha.

went clubbing at nite! zouk! since its so near my place.. so i jus decided to take my things and go home lor. dun stay in the chalet liao. club and go home. hm.. mi, alex, mag, cheryl and serena went. i got in with ease.. onli serena got bounced.. lol! till she decided to go in thru another entrance.. then got in. lucky she got in.. if not.. duno how. its mambo nite. then theres the mambo side and the normal side. r n b music. the mambo side is really fun.. lol. those ppl dancing with hand signs.. like para para! its very cool la. so nice to watch them. then jus try to learn. look at them and follow. cos theres 3 platforms.. one platform are the pros. they noe hwo to dance it. then another platofrm got those funny ang mohs.. dancing in their own way.. so cute and funny la. got one fat guy.. his face is so funny too.. wahaha. cannot take it. then the last platform got the hot gals. short skirts. daning on their own too.. i like to look there. =) hahaha.

the r n b side.. its normal la. very crowded there tho. squeeze like shit. then i happen to be in front of this couple, i doubt they noe each other. but they hug and dance until very close. then the guy slowly keep touching.. till he hands ended up inside the gal's top. till like super near the boobs. like touch abit also la. cos his hand was in.. then her top was like lifted till can see whole stomach. onli covering the boobs. =) cool.. jus stay there and watch. lol.. zouk is quite nice and big enough la. wun sweat like shit. more civilised. =)

oh.. i duno if its cos of the drinks or maybe its the music and lightning turning on and off making mi giddy.. but.. i couldnt walk very straight? i nv drink alot.. serious. or cos im lousy? lol.. cheryl also cannot walk straight. mag even worse.. aiyo. i wasnt very alrite.. then still have to go find some gals.. and tkcare of them. worried for them. wah. wad a task! lol.. anyway.. the music inside is blasting. i still can hear properly even when im out of the club for an hour. even when i reach home. serious stuff. haha.

slpt for like 10 hrs. woke up and still really tired.. mentally and physically. lol.. abit la. then jus stay at home todae lor. rest.. and ohoh.. when we going clubbing tt dae.. we saw mr tang, vj pe plus track teacher at the train station. then mi and cheryl pon trnin tt dae.. so we faster run away to the end of the station. lucky he nv see.. lol.. quite funny.

think enough fun for the 2 daes. tmr is back to my normal self. will nto drink again anytime soon. its now back to trnin. i will wan to build my body one lor! lol.. trning trning.. wake up at 7.30.. and its 2 now. lets bet! will i be late? lol.. i bet i will be.. i noe myself well. =) tata.

Going Off

2004-11-16T11:59:00.000+08:00

Going Off

woohoo.. nv blog for so long. jus so lazy to blog and basically. my life have been quite boring. im always complaning im have nth to do. lol. i hate rotting at home. but sometimes. tts the onli thing u can do.

fri.. hm.. watched a movie. since like how long ago la! so bloody deprived. dun even noe got wad movies out there. being in vj makes u seperate from the outside world. u will always be in the east. and make frens with the dunman ppl.. hohoho.. im back to the dunman topic again =P long gone are the sji daes.. when we visit town almost everydae la. at least walk walk abit then go home. cos i gotta take a train from town to go home. so yeah. now im a frog in the wall. dun even go town. hate this. pls lets have more outings and lets watch shutter!! walala outing? dun be scared.. lol.

sat.. practically jus rotted at home la. cannot take it. jus stay at home. jus the bloody comp. watch tv. stare at the wall and meditate. wah! sian!

sun.. oh.. at least we have a small outing at gareth's place. mi bong daren fader. play mahjong.. my fav game. lol. at 1st they din wanna play money la. cos fader dun wan. then when we play money.. fader jus step out la. and since he was so bored and have nth to do. guess wad he did? started playing black music from the comp. omg.. stupid blacks. matt u shld have come and enjoy the music man. ur fav. wonderful. =) will remind u of ur nigerians. wahaha

mon.. woke up and run! hey dun play play k! ran to tanglin.. then walk ard abit. bought drinks. then ran back. actually my house is so near town lor. so fast reach. lol. after tt i went delta gym in the afternoon. so long nv go gym. go inside see all the damn big ppl. scared sia! damn scary.. their arm like ur thigh! haha. but yeah. started my 4-month bodybuilding workout. i wan to get bigger. too skinny. gimme 4 months. =) i have faith. i can do it. lol.

going for chalet soon. but going gym 1st. not particularly interested in the chalet. cos my class like.. not so happening? though its one of the best in vj? haha. nvm. jus bring positive attitude to it. i shall go there and practise my cooking skills on them. be my pigs. wahaha. later make a mess of myself. poison them! haha. i really wanna learn cooking. will try later! =P

actually i jus woke up. though its quite late. but yeah.

b4 i slpt u were the one im thinking abt.. and when i woke. u were the first person or even first thing tt came to my mind. perhaps tts how much u mean to me. =)

2nd Lacteal Test

2004-11-11T15:37:00.000+08:00

2nd Lacteal Test

hm.. took alot of tests yest. lacteal test, sprint, jumping test. quite high tech. run 60m.. then got machines and timers at every 10 m to take ur time. alot of cameras also. super accurate. but b4 that.. had to take lacteal test. i ate breakfast this time!! hahaha. they poke mi 2 more fingers lor. but this time not as pain. so quite ok. but ah. the physio.. the wife is due to deliver.. but he still stayed and wait for everyone to finish.. im the last one la. after mi, he still has to write out report.. then he can go hospital to see his wife. i think its like so responsible la. commitment to your job. i guess.. if u really like your job, and noe tt u need to complete ur work, this is wad u will do? but cannot leave ur wife in the hosp lidat!! anyway.. pity him.. and admire him too.

BUT... way b4 the test. teh female assistant came to ask me to take the lacteal test. tts the 1st time hakeem saw her la. then he sae.. wah boon! how come she noes u! why u so lucky? apparently the assistant got quite good figure and pretty la. then i ask hakeem.. "why? u like her ah?" then he sae.. "yeah i like big eyes". i was wondering la. wad abt her eyes? big so? then i ask him.. eyes onli wad. then he looked down to his chest and sae.. " i meant big EYES!!" omg lor. hakeem.. canot stand him. then we concluded tt we can put her on the trendmill and take the lacteal test too. then we all can observe her EYES for 3 mins. =)

pw is over.. quite happy cos we wun have to do all the stupid work. but a lil sad.. cos gonna miss the times we had. my grp is really very long one la. alot of meetings. mainly toking cock. but its really nice lah. to sit down and tok and play. gonna miss them man.. had our last official meeting and had dinner together. went marina and ate steamboat. alot of food la. pretty nice. then theres nice prawns!! wah.. we all dunno how to catch la. then the 1st one.. jumped out onto the table la! then the gals scream like dunno wad. everyone looking at us la! so funny. we damn clumsy. i also dunno how to catch. but when some of the prawns jumped onto the table.. and no one dared to catch.. so no choice la. i gotta do it. wah! how to catch prawns? jus grab its bloody body and throw it in the soup la! wads so diff? its rather disgusting tho. scary.. lol.

now tt everyone has finished.. holis officially started la. and noe wad.. its getting boring! really dunno wad to do la. todae jus gonna stay at home and slp. who wanna ask mi out? wanna watch movies? rah! i hate staying at home la. really jus rot. holis are qutie shitty sometimes. i guess todae jus stay at home to rest lor. find ur soul. =) so tt u wun get too lost of urself.. trying so hard to compete with everyone outside. sometimes.. jus stay in ur lil shell and meditate!! wahah. tang wing kee!! rem? u cow.. face the wall and meditate! u stupid or wad? why dun u drop dead? when u get one mental sums qn wrong.. no brains must have muscles. so tt no brains still can be bouncer next time. down 20!! i love tang wee kee! fav teacher! i love SJI.

Back..

2004-11-07T01:54:00.000+08:00

Back..

hm.. i shall not be too slack and start blogging again. hm.. thurs. took a lacteal test. for SAAA athletes. its quite tough. running in sets of 3 mins each. every set increase speed and take the amt of lactic acid in ur body. do the max no. of sets u can do. wah u can jus drop dead la. anyway.. b4 the test.. the pysio ask, so what time did u have ur breakfast? then i said.. erm.. i din take? cos its like 9.30. and once i woke up rush down liao. eat wad shit. then he sae.. wat!! im going to kill u!! lol.. funny guy. then said. i din wan the muslims to take the test cos they are fasting, glucose level will be lor. then now u join their gang and dun eat!! hahaha. then i gave him an innocent look and sae.. oops.. im sorry? hahahahah.. the test was a killer.. breakfast is indeed impt. my lactic was really high! lol.

after the test go see sports doctor. b4 going in have to fill this nutrition test. the questions are like.. do u have 8-10 glasses of water everydae? do u eat 2-3 cups of baked rice? take enough meat? vege? take note of ur diet? wah.. i everything..tick no no no!!! then hand up the form to the doctor.. he was like" wow.. this is really bad. but dun be too worried.. i have seen worse. but this is quite bad.." lol.. everything is so funny. this medical checkup at least made mi learnt to take care of diet la. fruits are impt too. quite a cool dae.

fridae.. chinese. i din anyhow do la. but its not fantastically easy la. the middle part is qutie hard. i noe the ans liao. i din do very well la. and my compo wasnt good. cannot get A1 liao. i hope A2 at least. was pretty sad la. but over! then pw.. larry choy is a piece of shit la. all the other rehearsal he nv say anything abt mi, then tt dae.. when its alr so near to the real presentaiton, then he jack my whole content la. practically every pt. like wth!! he is an idiot lor. if he had said earlier.. maybe i wun get so stressed la. fridae was a bad dae la. pissed and sian.. rah!!

todae went serena's house to do pw la. solve all the stupid probs. got roxy gal in town. wanted to go watch. but nv.. mag got thru to top 12. lol. will be competing in sentosa. cool. i will go and watch for tt one. then went holland v to meet sji gang. its not like very interesting or fun la. but i guess its jus a meet up. see each other. though stoned abit. but yeah. nice feeling. with sji ppl. like home. jus like i was reading the sji magazine sji sent. though im not in it.. but jus reading it.. makes mi smile. looking at teh ppl, teachers. memories man. if i have sons.. they will all go sji. i love SJI!! rah! and btw, so long nv go holland v, its quite happening, esp at nite. =)

hm.. and leandra went out. i tot and knew she wld. not tt i really support her. but dunno why. when she went out. felt like tearing leh. abit.. shes actually quite good la. and her "ben".. wah, think its really her song. sad... hm..

haven seen u for so long. oh man. abt 5 daes? but it seems so so long to mi. going to be more than a wk soon. wah. think this is gonna be longer than when i go aust. tts if i go la. flights like not confirmed leh? lol. daes without u..

P.S. matt i nv zhong se qing you. stop toking rubbish lor. *yahlah*

Lazy

2004-11-06T01:55:00.000+08:00

Lazy

rah!! im jus so lazy to blog.. im rah-ing too much recently. getting influenced. hahah. tired! doing pw! actually i have things to blog abt. but im jus too slack. missing you a hell lot.

2nd Nov

2004-11-03T03:15:00.000+08:00

2nd Nov

wad a cool dae. really.

anyway, 2 nov is sam's bdae. i wished her happy bdae like 11+ the dae b4. cos i was really tired and wanted to do to slp. cannot wait till 12. then shes like.. find it really funny? tt i msg and sae i cannot tahan liao? and sorta scold mi? like wth? i cant slp? i nv jus fall aslp very good liao lor. still bother to msg her. wah mad.

suppose to have pw in the morning. or at noon rather. i felt if i go. i wun do anythign also. cos i noe nuts abt powerpt. and will be calvin doing everything. and since there's nth much to change abt my part. i jus nv go. though i felt guilty. but yeah. hougang is jus qutie far! lol. actually i was toking to eve when im suppose to go for meeting. but its not cos of her i nv go. din wanted to in the 1st place. toked for 3.25.24 hrs. kao.till my phone no batt. house phone la. jus hold on to the phone and tok non stop. we put down cos i was really hungry. went to buy food. =P stupid woman. rah!

met her jus b4 dinner. jus walk ard bukit merah. wah then we decided to walk insdie the supermarkets. we are like so deprived la. go and play with toys.. and look at all kinds of food and all. telling each other which kind of food we had when we were young, which packet of cornflakes, what choc, wad drink. which maggie we eat. some thigns we dun eat anymore. but now looking at them. it brings back memories la. so fun man. jus looking at the food or other items and think back. wah! so long ago. u all shld once dae jus have a slow walk in teh supermarket. take a look at everything. =) u will be surprised to see some things still there.

she walked mi to a bus stop.. waited for a while. but din take bus in the end.. walk back to train station. quite dumb. but yeah. then realised todae is sam's bdae, and its exactly 2 months since i knew eve. jus quite interesting. and now its 2am and im here doing pw. lol.. played and chatted too much jus now. alrite. pw rocks? lol. in any case.. todae will be a dae to rem. 2nd Nov 2004. i will not forget. trust me.

Embrace

2004-11-02T11:53:00.000+08:00

Embrace - Gravity

HoneyI
t's been a long time coming
And I can't stop now
Such a long time running
And I can't stop now
Do you hear my heart beating?
Can you hear the sound?
Cos I can't help thinking
And I don't look down...

And then I looked up at the sun and I could see
Oh the way that gravity turns for you and me
And then I looked up at the sky and saw the sun
And the way that gravity pulls on everyone
On everyone...

Baby its been a long time waiting
Such a long long time
And I can't stop smiling
No I can't stop now
Do you hear my heart beating?
Oh can you hear that sound?
Cos I can't help crying
And I won't look down...

And then I looked up at the sun and I could see
Oh the way that gravity turns on you and me
And then I looked up at the sun and saw the sky
And the way that gravity pulls on you and I
On you and I

Reflecting

2004-10-30T16:27:00.000+08:00

Reflecting

hm.. yest talked to eve abt how we were when we knew each other. my frens wld noe tt i keep telling them abt this stc gal. then like going abit siao. keep disturbing ppl with stc gal stc gal. till everyone got irritated with me. lol. to my surprise, her side of the story is the same too. keep telling her frens abt me. its jus so funny lah. even b4 we knew each other.

todae.. jus in a sian mood. dun really feel like going out. or for a stayover. did a chinese compre tt dae. in life.. jus cant be filled with activities. play or work. u jus cant spend all ur time and focus on the things. once a while. u need time for urself. find a quiet place.. think abt wad u wan in life. are u doing the right things. wads actually happening ard u. wad have u missed or left out? u need find for urself once a while.. find ur soul. its really impt. i think todae is soul searching dae for me. lol. =)

and yeah.. i've been thru so much in my life. i wld sae. i wun wan to regret a single bit of my life. from young. i mixed with gansters.. poeple smoking and taking drugs. but i wasnt influenced. proud of myself for tt. then went sji. where all my true frens are found. once a josephian, always a josephian. they friendship wld not be lost. we can not meet for 1 yr, but when we meet again.. everythign's jus so normal, like we jus met the dae b4. teh bond is always there. so glad i went sji. from pri sch to sji.. i've met all kinds of people, gansters, ppl tt frequent boys homes to all the guai ppl. future ministers? dun discriminate people with wad they do, or seemed to be like. onli judge the person when u personally noe them.. or judge places when u have personally been there. i think character is the most impt. u can smoke or wadeva, but if u dun do harm.. naturally kind hearted. i think its worth being a fren. jus dun get influenced by wad they do. gansters make very good frens actually. brotherhood. lol. =)

and now i finished one yr of jc.. last official dae of sch jus ended on fridae. struggled thru. managed to promote. but not all did. one of my classmate is going out i think. im quite lucky. i've been complaining abt vj. but i think at the end of the dae. i dun regret coming here. its a different culture here. but its when u have been thru everything, then u realised wad is really right u. all the struggles, problems.. they made the person i am now. stronger.. more considerate. and thinking more. the world is nto jus abt u. take note of the people ard u. wad u have now is all a result of wad u have been. the things u've achieved, done.. the person u met. if u are happy now, dun regret abt the past. if u are not happy.. have faith. look ahead. theres a path for everyone. God planned it? thigns will turn out well for u.

i've tot, if i were to change anything in my past. i really wun be who i am todae. no pt regretting. make use of wad u have now and get wad u wan. theres always hope. =) dun be a murphy. i dislike him to the core. tho he is interesting. somethigns u regret abt the things u've lost, and wad wld have happened if u were somewhere else. like wad if im in a diff jc. will i get wad i wan? but when u gained sth or met a new person, will u still be regretting? if all those din happen. u wld nto get wad u have now or the person u noe now. for mi.. im happy with my track career, i dun wan to change anything, i have my frens. dun have alot, but they are enough. made my life happier. and if i din break up this yr, i would not have treasure my frens so much. i din think i wld have got much closer to wenx shu, nic.. and some others. salman is always there tho. so perhaps.. its a good thing. made mi realised the things ard me. and if i din break up.. i wun noe wad i really wan.. and i would'nt have found you.. seriously. im really glad.

FAITH. dun regret. =)

Wonderful Day

2004-10-27T23:36:00.000+08:00

Wonderful Day

hm.. wad a great day todae! chinese mock exams in the morning, then like.. boring!! lol. anyhow do la, then got quite abit of time, left my compre nv finsih then i go out of the lt to walk walk and go toilet, 15 mins later then come back. paper wasnt tt tough la, but my compo wasnt good. can feel it. =)

then in teh afternoon got this sms onation charity thingy. its some malay thing. mass sms donation. channel news asia and suria were here in vj to capture the scene. like quite cool lah. lol. din watch the news though. dunno if im on it. lalala =P i did charity can?! u people better start doing.

suppose to have pw. but wahaha. played piano!! im loving piano. it has always been a dream of mine to be able to play. always admire people who can play so well. hope one dae i can play. but yeah.. now jus for fun. and its really cool. love it! haha. sorry for those trying to do work or studyign in the concourse.. sorry to disturb u all with my wonderful music. whahaha.

and u.. piggie. went to see u tho im jus a lil bit tired. but im really ok. u looked more tired than mi la. keep slping. so zhu.. nv study lor u. but yeah.. glad u slpt, or rather laid ur head down.. cos yeah.. u noe. was wishing time wld freeze at that moment. =) u seriously eat quite lil tho. think pig onli refers to ur slping part cos u cant eat. =P and u dunno u can cut thru the buildings? wanna get lost again in redhill? oh my tian! good luck for ur paper.

Slack but Vain?

2004-10-24T19:35:00.000+08:00

Slack but Vain?

jus toked to my fren. realised that.. do gals really like running? sometimes those gals running, esp in vj, the gals more chiong than the guys. do they really wan to keep fit? and think its healthy? or they are so vain till they have to run? to keep a nice body?

and my fren. she is so so slack. but she told mi she is going to run tmr? like wow? haha. she's runnign cos she dun one to get fast.. so vain. but she's so slack and dislike sun. running is not in her volcabulary. so can slackess be actually overcome by gal's vain-ness? too vain.. so must run.
think most gals are lidat. who really enjoys running? i dont! my fren is TAN WEN LIN. =)

Clubbing

2004-10-24T04:46:00.000+08:00

Clubbing

firstly.. i wanted to say sth i've always wished for. SAAA, some spore track association shit, is sending a team to aust to train from 18-26 nov. and im allowed to sign up. =) i have like always wanted to go overseas for training or competitions. walaa perth, malaysia, asean schs. i've always wanted to go, to rep spore overseas. but i've onli represented once. and its in spore! like how boring.. i wan to go overseas. and now. im given a chance. centralised trainin camp for the association's athletes in aust!! =) and onli pay 100 bucks. oh my tian! im so excited.. after yrs of disappointment. will i really get to go this time? i really hope so. faith. and yes.. i have faith. =)

now i shall share this newbie's 1st experience clubbing. it some cj and sa party at SOS. 1stly i wanted to wear t-shirt la. then daren called and said you rong sae dun be so slack. at least wear a button shirt. then like alrite... lol. i managed to get thru.. yes shu i did!! nv get kicked out. =P was abit scared when they asked for my id. cos im using my bro's one. like 24? lol. but they let mi in tho. =) went in quite early and all. and it was quite empty. so we sat down, hang ard for 1 hr. then ppl start coming in. then becme more fun. cos b4 tt, its really boring. like falling aslp. lol.

so after a while, more and more ppl go to the dance floor. then like my gang.. which is daren's you rong's gang la. started to go dancing. so all followed lor. i guessed its pretty alrite and fun. need to like slowly slowly.. then can start dancing. need to get into the mood. so was pretty alrite after we started. all our shirts were like totally wet after 1 hr or sth. and once u stop dancing, it gets realy cold. cos u are so wet.

act i went cos my frens ask.. then wanna go for the experience. and wanted to drink abit. i've always been against drinking. but now like i wanna try. its not like im turning bad la. it wun be a hobby. lol. but i think its perhaps neccessary to be able to drink abit. it'd definitely be useful. and now whenever i get a chance. i will try. and then.. the free drink there is like how useless? so lil plus like no alcohol content? its jus like a soft drink. super disappointed la. i went there more for the drinking than the dancing or wadeva. ordered one more shot. but still useless. irritated. stole a few mouth of beer from you rong when we went out to buy. i prefer volka.. not beer. =/ but still.. sad la. i nv drink anything. super awake. damn sian!!

and like my fren was worried. pubs cld be quite a messy place. now tt im there b4, i would sae it could be.. but its up to u. as long as u are responsible, noe wad u are doing. its totally fine. like u jus dun smoke and all tt la. ppl wun come and disturb u one la. so i wld sae its relatively safe. so ppl dun worry. jus one think i dislike abt it is the smoke. i really dislike smokers and smokes. argh!! and u shldnt go clubbing every nite. cos u will go deaf very soon. like after a few yrs. u cant hear anything when u get out of the pub one. =)

another thing. i thik its faithfulness. this is impt to me la. cos i wld sae im really qutie a faithful person. faithful to people. so yah. surely theres like gals and guys coming to u la. like we said jus now, they open door for u.. but u dun have to go in. u can go and close the door. as in u dun have to flirt back la. if u are single. then its more ok la. but if u are attached.. i think its wrong. seriously. i can stand abit la.. like jus dance abit.. for a while. u shdlnt touch too much. now tts really wrong la. can see all the people ard. yah. and like i sae, its pretty safe, provided u noe wad u are doing. cos u can reject them. but if u cant resist the temptation.. for jus half an hr, and wan to suffer and regret for wad u have done. then its up to u. self control is impt.

all my frens whom i tot was quite guai.. saw them there, like surprised already. sumore stil qutie wild when they dancing and all. like wow! quite interesting to see. i tried my best to takecare of my fren.. cos im asked to. really got try lor. dun blame mi for anything. and i waited for the person and made sure the person is safe.. took a cab back. then i go home lor. i got tkcare!

going out of pt.
as i spend more and more time with u, i find that im more and more comfortable with u. its really a good thing. and as i get to noe u more.. i found out tt the things im looking for.. u have it all. seriously. nth i wan to change abt u. everything jus really suits me well. hope u think the same way too. and silly, if u dun wan to come down for open house, then dun come down? aiyo. and u can even get lost in ur own area. well done =) we dunno walk until where. after living there for so mani yrs? sad case. =P knock on the head.

i believe

2004-10-21T09:29:00.000+08:00

I Believe

wohoo.. pon sch. going to start work soon. this song is like quite long ago la.. but suddenly like it again.

I Believe - Fantasia Barrino

Ohh, oh
Have you ever reached a rainbows end?
And did you find your pot of gold?
Ever catch a shooting star?
And tell me how high did you soar?
Ever felt like you were dreaming
Just to find that your awake?
And that magic that surounds you
Can lift you up and guide you on your way
I can see it in the stars across the sky
Dreamt a thousand dreams before
Now I finally realize
You see I 've waited all my life
For this moment to arrive
And finally
Yeah, yeah
I believe in the immposible
If I reach deep within my heart
Overcome many obstacles
Won't let this dream just fall apart
You see I strive to be the very best
Shine my light for all to see
Cause anything is possible
When you believe
I can see it in the stars accross the sky
Dreamt a 100,000 dreams before
Now I finally realize
You see I 've waited all my life
For this moment to arrive
And Finally
I believe
I said I believe
Love keeps lifting me higher
You ought to try it for yourself
Lifting me higher
Love keeps lifting me higher
higher higher higher higher
Love keeps lifting
Love keeps lifting me higher
Higher

Confusing

2004-10-21T01:01:00.000+08:00

Confusing

oh i failed gp. may have some problems now. though generally think can promote. but will get into trouble la i think. bad bad. went sch to get papers and all. then went for saaa's medical checkup. quite fun la. my grp is with the sprinters and the more interesting ppl la. jus crap and all. had urine test, blood, and some x-ray.

urine test we all gotta fill the bottle up.. quite disgusting. and when i went into the toilet.. after salman and amir. its like.. i see liquid all over the floor la. like quite dirty. i went out and ask.. so the water on the floor issit water or issit u all piss all over the place while trying to collect ur pee inside the bottle!! lol.. blood test.. needles was kinda painful. and salman.. lol. right side, poke halfway.. cannot go in. so change hand. change liao.. left hand cannot find vein. oh well. had to take some special needle with tubes and all to get the blood out. weird man. no veins. =P

met yolk.. cut hair and met eve. had dinner then went home together. =) simple and meaningful dae.

i was really confused last nite. suddenly felt insecure, blur and worried. i dunno wads goin to happen for us. its hard to predict. unsure abt the future. was unsettled. but after the slp. when i heard ur voice in the morning, it jus brightened my dae up. and did some thinking and all. u must mean sth in order to light up my dae. thinking abt u later in the dae. i jus felt tt everything was really alrite. i need to have faith. its my motto. i need to push all other things aside. cos now, i noe wad i wan and i need to work for it. no more confusion or being worried, cos for now.. i noe tt u are the one. Have faith in me? and us?

You have faith?

2004-10-19T23:12:00.000+08:00

You have Faith?

wah.. i needed faith and i found it! yest i was so so worried, so stressed and everything. not onli worried abt promos. but there are also so mani things to do. pw and all also. but now.. i dun feel so stressed up anymore.. everything's light now =) cos.. i passed my econs!! by 3 marks!! means.. im promoting!! faith man.. wahaha. am i good or wad? onli really a few ppl failed econs. i was pretty worried yest. but im so happy now. =) sorry for bothering all my frens. worrying for me too. thanks for being there for me. its cos of u all, vj is a nicer place. =)

recently i really like piano!! been asking cheryl yolk and tiang to teach me. sji badminton juniors came vj to appeal and take trials jus now. i dun qutie noe them, though they noe mi la, cos i quited quite early. then asked mi if its nice here. i tell them NOT to come. lol =) i so love vj man.. wahaha. then had pw.. ordered macs to sch.. ate alr then we played piano in the concourse.. disturb all the yr 2s studying. lol. went home too late. gotta climb out of gate. zz.

daren is a pessimistic person la. i canot stand him. he is super lor.. till he is like a follower of murphy. everythign we tell him he dun believe. anything tt will go wrong will go wrong - murphy's law.. sian. he mad liao. call him murphy now. but murphy is interesting lor. we got so irritated with daren till we go research on murphy. he got so mani laws lor!

--Anything that can go wrong will go wrong.
--Left to themselves, things tend to go from bad to worse.
--If anything simply cannot go wrong, it will anyway.

The Murphy Philosophy
Smile . . . tomorrow will be worse.

Murphy's Military Laws
--The buddy system is essential to your survival; it gives the enemy somebody else to shoot at.
--If your advance is going well, you are walking into an ambush
--If your sergeant can see you, so can the enemy

Murphy's Laws of sex
--Sex is a three-letter word which needs some old-fashioned four-letter words to convey its full meaning.
--Don't do it if you can't keep it up.
--Sex is like snow; you never know how many inches you are going to get or how long it is going to last.

some of the more interesting laws.. ah well..

Open House and PW

2004-10-17T20:13:00.000+08:00

Open House and PW

firstly, sth abt Spore Idol.. yes.. Jerry went out. he is a dumb piece of shit. but syl was bottom 3.. i was pretty worried, but he is safe. so nvm. crissy poo/chris shld go out soon too. another irritating one.

fridae has this team bonding thing la. its like playing ice breakers with our own team? orientation ah? w noe each other la. except for other events one, some dunno. but dun have to go to the extent of playing ice breakers rite? sian. then played more games. run under the hot sun. dislike it. but ivana organised everything. so give some face la. =) jus play. haha.

Open house was alrite. pretty boring. not mani trackers came to our sch also. not alot of ppl signed up at our booth. so dunno who wans to come. met up with my juniors, talked to them and all. slacked ard, eat ice cream. but.... everything the mass dance music is on.. alethia, though she had alot of blisters, will pull mi to the carpark and do mass dance. mad woman. twice u noe!! was tired and tried to sneak out but she will see me.. catch and put mi into the centre of the mass of people. cannot get out liao. she loves mass dance man. crazy woman.

stayover at serena's place.. not playing this time k? stayed over to do PW!! wah.. final draft already. left oral presentation and everything will be over. cant wait for tt dae. pw sucks la. put in so much effort and everything. so tired. wah.. cannot take it. and she is such a lousy host. one of the worst. take drink also lazy, take phone for us also lazy. but she was still ok on the whole la. im jus bias. lol. PW is going to be over soon!!

think like wenx said, i shld not blog abt my everydae life. tts why im starting to get bored also. lazy to blog. shld blog sth new. =) see how.

seriously, im falling in love with YOU.

Its so fun!

2004-10-13T23:38:00.000+08:00

Its So Fun!!

i really got to blog abt this. think may be long. went jb.. but b4 tt, everyone's like dun wan to go la. cos serena organised it. and she is some mad freak la. crazy ideas. tot we going to get cheated and all. we went with a im-going-to-get-cheated-attitude.

we onli had like pathetic 7 ppl going. and in the morning, when i reached, i heard tt the otehr 2 guys are not comin. so left 5? clas outing? wad class? lol. im the onli guy. but i dun mind. so we went la.. had breakfast somewhere in jb.. then we got onto this super long long ride to the ostrich farm! its so long till we are so sian la. like.. are we going to travel lidat thruout the dae? quite sian by then alr. but when we reached the ostrich farm and went in.. we are like so high la!! its super cool. learnt alot of things. the ostriches are so damn big and cool!! i took the most pics there!! with my phone!! wah!! can step on the eggs one.. wun break. can tahan 130kg. can touch the ostriches and all also. so so fun..

then we had like a heavenly lunch!! cannot take it. seafood. noe wad we had? very nice fried rice.. fish, lobster, pepper crabs, prawns, kangkong, sea cucumber, calms and longang as desert!! like how heavenly? eat till siao can? we its suppose to be 7 ppl's share, ther other 2 backed out. so we got more to eat! wah! loved it. then we went mango farm!! the mango there are really nice la. bought 2 kg back. will ripe in two daes time. its super sweet. will enjoy it soon!! then went a honey place.. bees and stuff, quite useless. bought cuttlefish at the minimart though. nth to do with honey. =P

then think we went this dumb waterfall. jus waterfall lor.. wads so great? took some photos nevertheless.. had fun. we cldnt go up to the top of the waterfall. so the trip is like really quite useless. but then.. we went shopping!! wasnt fantastic.. but we bought vcds!! wahahha. species 3, passion of the christ. and some others. =) going to share ard. then we went for dinner.. was rushing and all. and tey see we onli 5 ppl.. they gave us lesss dishes. cos they prepared for 10. then its getting late and all. so like had to rush and eat. not very full. but dinner was ok, simpler. chicken, fish, vege. lidat onli. we dun wan anotehr round of crabs anyway.. so its ok.

then we went to watch fireflies!! like nv in my life!! its so damn cool!! their butts glow? how cool can tt be? ur butts do? no rite? lol.. it slike damn dark already.. cannot take any photos la! its all dark. damn sian. but the fireflies are damn cool. we took the boat.. on teh river.. then will pass the trees.. they all gather ard the trees, till it became like christmas tree.. shiny. i swear its like christmas tree. the whole dae summore. got light. its so damn cool la! then we went so close to the tree.. shake it.. and wad time issit? its time to catch fireflies!! wah!! so fun.. very easy to catch one. no feeling one. they are too small. then we catch quite a no. in the bag.. played with it. then let it go. its really such an experience. catching them.. and the scenes.. christmas tree.. wah so damn cool!

coming back.. nth much. jus tt serena is so sucky and got caught for chewing gum. wrote down her name and she had to go to the office and crash the chewing gum in front of the police and throw it into the rubbish bin. quite funny. hahahhaa. but honestly.. serena is great.. its such a wonderful outing. we all really enjoyed it so much. though we doubted her. =P haha but she has really dnoe a great job. thank you.

ostrich farm, lunch, and the fireflies made me quite high. high parts of the trip. when travelling from places to places. when i close my eyes, taking a rest, i'll think of u. esp at the fireflies area.. its such a nice place, scene, and catching the flies.. u were the one tt came into my mind. wanna spend tt beautiful time with u. its so nice and amazing. seriously missed u.. and how i wish u were there with me thruout the whole time.. =)

Shu's house!

2004-10-12T23:56:00.000+08:00

Shu's House!

Mondae morning.. went jogging with eve. she is like.. really damn good. though ppl who noes my long dist ability will know im not very good.. but she can keep up with me. and for a gal. its really very good already la. saw from our house here.. then to tanglin. to see this house tt daren's bro showed us some time ago. there's already like 5 damn chio sports car parked at the outside of the house. i wonder how mani more in the basement. yah. then ran back to tiong bahru park. sat in the playground. toked. really pretty nice. nice feeling. and there so mani things written on the wooden thigns in the playground.. vandalise. its like how childish and lame. jus like those at the back the bus. find these ppl damn childish.

went to extend my passport. so i can go malaysia tmr. class outing. but 7 ppl. less than 1/3? wow!! how great can vj get. hope it'll be fun. dun cheat my money. went shu's house after tt. no one at home. onli the maids. slack abit. then played mahjong!! cos got 8 ppl, then play 2 tables. at 1st like.. sat in the table.. damn sian la. nv win nv lose. dislike tt. either u win alot, or u lose alot. i hate draw. then when i changed to the other table. hoho. won alot.. =) abt 17 bucks. nice.. and as usual.. jus like mi.. its getting late and since i live so far from her house. i decided not to go home. actually its chun influenced mi one la. he asked if i wan to stay. and i going sch the next dae also. its so near sch. so stay lor.

oh man.. i realised theres alot to type. i try to cut it short. lol. then we went swimming ard 12am!! quite cool. the water is warm. so not cool. and i sommersault and all. so long nv play. so fun. and sandy is there lor.. so means wad? means will make alot of noise.. and means wad? means the neightbour will complain. and they did. lol. asked us to keep quiet. so after a while. we went sauna!! quite fun. damn hot. need determination. to not get distracted. so fun. after tt.. go gym!! did some weights. now aching abit. her house is really cool lah. got so mani things. fun.

then stayed in teh house and all. chun and sandy slept early. left mi shu and yolk. jus sat down and tok. chit chat. its really very nice. quiet, peaceful. jus sit down and tok. =) liked tt. they are nice frens too. next morning went sch.. pw.. then when i went home after pq.. a horror thing happened!!!

i have no keys.. cannot go home! like how zzzz....super sian. and its like 12 onli. and my parents wun be back till 5+ or6. really dunno wad to do. lucky got some money. decided to go watch a movie. but wad movie to watch? brave mi.. and i seriously think im such a brave soul.. i decided to watch exorcist!! like omg... alone??! lol.. proud of myself. nearly fell aslp while waiting for the show to start cos im so tired, but, the show is really not scary la. its like teh tribe ppl looks scary.. not the ghost type of scary.. cos they like perform rituals and all. paint their face and jump ard. im scared to watch think cos of its reputation, think it'll be so scary, but after halfway.. i realised its really nth at all. serious. so yeah.. 1st time watching a movie alone.

then noe wad.. after movie 3+, eat.. then 4+.. then do wad? dunno. decided to go back home and slp.. slp where? i slpt on the stairs beside my house lor. till my parents come back. like a poor lil beggar or unwanted kid who got kicked out of the house. i pity myself. haha. slpet the moment i got home. going jb tmr! hope it will be alrite. so yeah.. need to slp soon. bye!

Exams Over

2004-10-10T15:08:00.000+08:00

Exams are Over

hey man.. exams are over. but its like.. nto really very happy. firstly.. its the 1st exams tt im so worried abt the results la. this time is really impt. need to noe if u are promoting. so im like not super happy.. jus like normal dae lor. i think its also cos got pw and stuff.. still streesed.. oral presentation. and still got chinese. sian.

but.. with the usual gang and the usual slackness and heck-careness. we went over to daren's house agian lor. lol. on fridae nite. jus after our papers. and gareth and fader still have papers the next wk. but all dun care. all went. lol. its really pretty fun lah. we had more than normal no. of ppl. quite a big grp. so its good. =) played so much risk lor, the boardgame. played 3 times. lost one. lol.

then went back to slp the next dae. then jus feel like seeing eve.. so i went town to find her la. though i was qutie tired from everything. but its was a really nice outing. glad i went down. we jus had dinner. but when we walk ard and all.. and during dinner. we really can tok quite comfortably. its a really nice feeling. so ya. she noes town so well lor. suddenly realised i have so much to learnt. all the new places. i suck man.

then tt nite after the stayover. mi chun and daren wanted to go town and stayover again la. watched movie and all. onli the three of us, cos all the rest not free. but anyway.. met daren at esplande area 1st. i love tt place la. its so nice.. romantic and all. nice scenes. and couples making out? lol. then went fullerton and all. played with the fishes. so big lor. haha. think got one bigger than my fren's, nic, one. hm.. tehn met chun in town.. cos we were quite far la. duno how to get to town and all. all the buses dun go there. so had to make him wait for quite long. then not much nice movies also lah. all went home. lol.. his dad sent us. and orchard last at nite is qutie dangerous lah. all the clubbers and ah bengs.. burdens to society. its jus dangerous la. scared tehy will do stupid thigns or beat u up if they dun like ur face.

so well.. slept until now. 3+.. wow. after 12 hrs. hahah. can almost wait up for dinner liao. so hope i can do well for my exams.. i think onli my physics got hope. but i dunno if i can pass still. i jus dun wan to repeat man. so yah. hope i can do it. dunno wad im goign to do todae. see how. tata!

Econs Paper

2004-10-05T14:15:00.000+08:00

Econs Paper

hoho, seriously. the econs paper was so fantastic la. i really dunno wad to sae. i dnno why im so slack. i can see tt im goign to fail already. even b4 the paper. this is one of the first times tt i really nv memorize properly for the exams lah. i roughly noe onli. and its like one of my most impt exams la. i really dunno wads wrong with me la. i think its quite sad. haha. nv study..plus the paper was so fantastic.. so i dun think im goign to pass already. need to work hard on maths and physics. need to pass to promote. i think i can..

teh dae b4 teh econs paper.. sundae.. i slept onli 2 hrs la.. reading the notes and all. hahaha. b4 ecosn had chinese. super tempted to cheat la. but i shall be a good boy. dun cheat. hahaha. can jus go toilet and check the words. but nvm. im good =) and sji got their results. quite interestin leh. my juniors are all quite smart lor. seriously proud of them. my trackers tt is. and toked to ashley yest. like almost all are coming vj lah.. i hope they dun abandon last min. but all coming lor.. its like sji unite lor!! im dying here already.. with all teh dunman and whoever ppl.. fianlly time to get mroe sji power in vj. im seriously so excited for next yr la. see all of them here. really nice. to have ppl u noe ard.. other than ppl from the ahem... sch. traning will be mroe fun also.. so excited. he only thing is dunno where sharman will go. he is my good junior and track wise, we will need him badly. i hope he doesnt go rj. 6pts also can come here wad. vj also got 6 pts. lol.

this yr is like so sian.. after my competitions and all. till i keep tellign everyone i hate vj. but im really so looking forward to next yr. its so interesting to see who will come.. and after they are here.. wad will happen. its really so interesting. plus next yr got the vip programme.. all the little boys and gals. lol. i hope ahmad and sharman will be here next yr.. it will realy motivate mi to train hard.. they are the key ppl. if they come.. we going to be champions. dun go rj pls. and looking forward to my sji juniors. my family. and the gals team is quite gone case i think. but i dun need good runners here.. but jus hope got some pretty ones. =) train already, tired still can look ard.. not bad lah. see pretty gals. =)

our track team really lacks good looking gals =D hahahhaha....

staying out

2004-10-02T16:37:00.000+08:00

Staying Out

hm.. seriously now. the exams are coming. and im not like any stupid ri or dunman people saying tt im scared i cant promote.. when they actually mean i scared i cant get S papers or As. seriously. i hope i promote. haha. as u can see. i dun like ri or dunman people? but not all lah. some are really ok. yup. im nice. =) wahaha.

and have been quite confused abt relationships and all. i dunno my feelings. sometimes u jus wish tt they dun exist, so u dun have to bother so much. figuring out ur feelings and all. sometimes its really tough. and yes.. kick them out of sch yeah.. chun and daren. save all the problems. and dear daren tan.. such an idiot lah. sure of evil tots. ask him so how to make ppl get kicked out of sch. he can jus immediately think of.. oh.. put a packet of cigarettes in their bags.. then tell teacher that u saw them smoking in sch. wat an idea. sae it out so simply. bet there's like 50 more ideas in his head. cannot stand him. lol.

and its like promos in a few daes lah. and we are staying out in town lah. wad is this. nv go home lor. people nv go home cos got celebration or sth. but we jus dun feel like going home. omg lor. mi daren chun and gareth were studying in lido. gareth left early.. then left the 3 of us. so ah.. we study until 11+ ten very late alr. act im also lazy to go home. then daren sae stay here? so ok lor. stay. lol. wanted to watch police story lor. but no showtimes. super sian. then think acsi got prom nite. or whichever sch lah. saw some gals also. maybe they bought all the tics. but another, went from lido to cine. watch dodge. wasnt really funny la. quite ok.. not touching also. lol. so alrite. then 3+ alr.. went youth park to study + slp till 5+ take 1st train home. so mani insects bite mi lor. sian.

ohoh.. i miss out. while we were studying, this ang moh teen walk pass us lah, then sae.. wow.. studying on fri nite. feel like punching him lah. one mroe wk. u wait. and another super rude guy at long john's counter.. the woman is really quite slow in serving us.. but dun have to think u are like the king of the world and show temper rite? wait abit will die issit? burden to the society. the whole world revolves ard him. finsihed. gg. sucker! telling the fren.. can u see cobwebs forming? saeing shes taking so long lah. super idiot.

slpet ard 9+ this morning.. haven really study. will start soon. no mood. i will pass econs! bye..

stressed

2004-09-26T20:04:00.000+08:00

Stressed

wah, left abt one wk till exams. damn stressed can? dunno.. have been studying physics, neglected the rest. and when i did my physics paper jus now, wah i cant do lor. sure fail one. so so mani mani wrong...!! die lah. i study so much for it also fail. later i really cannot promote how? sian. pls. i dun wan tt to happen. will start on maths soon.

slept too much todae lor. keep slping and slping. jus like in a very sian mood. duno why. and abit sian by wad my fren said yest. but now think ok liao lah. anyway! my house got more than qi qiao..!! i always need cup noodles, and im always so lazy to buy. and always when im hungry at nite, i'll jus starve. but now.. my bro stun alot of cup noodles from the plane.. he always stun things one.. so cool. so i shld have a non-stop supple of cup noodles? and some other things la. he's going to india now.. probably on the plane.. blangadesh! ard there lah.. hopes he wun get lost. =) its too dark everywhere..

yoyoyo

2004-09-24T21:18:00.000+08:00

Long time no see

yoyoyo.. its like one wk nv blog? miss me? haha. my dear blog. the past few daes have been coming home quite late lah. studying in sch and all. then come home.. always online, chat.. then its abt time to slp. haven been chionging alot. got better than nv do anything la. one wk study break. finsihed sch!! cool sia.

im almost done with my physics. and i tot i at least will noe abit la. but todae went for the lecture.. going thru revision. then i take the paper.. wah.. cant do la!! damn stupid. its basically jus one thing i din noe need to divide by half.. and its like the 2nd part of the qn.. so all my ans for the next few parts all wrong. sian. damn worried. tot i'd noe.. think i need to study more. and econs like going to die la. dunno wads going on man.. seriously!!

oh yeah. pw todae! wasnt in a mood when i was in the lab.. then like cant be bothered to tok to calvin. cos really cant communicate with him. his frequency is like dunno where. but think im quite rude to like dun tok properly to him. hai. im sorry. need to control myself. need to reflect. =/ but anyway.. finished 3rd draft. at least almost.. cos one member nv do her work. so she take home and complete. serena lim.. oh.. its her again.. zzz.. but not bad lah.. at least dun have to worry till after promos. i really hope i promote. have faith in physics.

fnished pw.. but dunno why my walala not studying in sch leh. no one in sch. feel so.. frenless? unwanted? lol. its ok lah.. was so hungry. went parkway to eat. oh. and this wk.. like everyone ponning lessons lah. lectures.. or jus pon the whole dae. even though they are in sch, jus refuse to go to lessons. lol. todae my class got abt 13 ppl? half. not bad lah.. heard some classes abt 6? or 7? wahaha =) walking out of com lab.. saw ivana studying with someone. its like..hai, hope wad i guessed is not correct lor.

jus now i opened my fridge.. and its like.. OMG!! haha. i got kit kat with chinese cover!! wah. its called qi qiao. i have no idea why.. but yeah. hahaha! bro came back from shanghai. he bought some bright orange adidas bag also. oh man.. so striking. erm.. tts abt it. and my new phone. the batt really suks la. cannot last one dae. okok. tata

Morning!

2004-09-19T06:55:00.000+08:00

Morning

hoho, its like 7 am now la.. haven slpt! hahaha. not very slpy still.. think im quite ok. cos i slept alot yesterdae. slept till 1 or 2 pm, then again from 6pm-10pm. damn pig. haha. so think i dun intend to slp.. till if i get tired later lor.

we have been playing this stupid game for the past few daes lah. the staying up to study game. whoever slps 1st loses.. and now its making mi slp every late. now i even stay up the whole dae. but din really do alot. did one maths tutorial onli. but its very long. and watched tv. jackie chan! i think his agility is superb lor. can jus climb over the gate so easily and all.

oh read sam's blog. still feel for her but i noe tt we cant be together la. it will be hard even if we do. but ah.. its jus one month and stuff.. and u can fall for another person already? i dun think she even fall for mi like shes falling for the guy now. its jus like.. everything is abt him and him. really cant imagine it lor. perhaps this can make mi think like.. since she can change her heart so easily, i shld jus forget it and think tt she is not worth it. sometimes i think this way. a person can change he or her feelings so fast? till u really fall in love already? its jus a matter of time.. waiting for her to say yes. im expecting it to be after promos. still.. it hurts la. thinking abt it. reality hurts. and all her frens are already asking her if they are together.. they look so so close. ah well. see.. to tt extent. to mi, its like she can jus forget abt someone and fall for another one so easily. i tot she wld take a long time. and i told my frens last time that we broke up not cos of other people, but its bet us. they said, aiya, lets jus see how long they take to get together, then u will noe if its cos of him. come to think of it, its really true la.. they are so close, in such a short time. and ya ya.. her frens will think im a jerk and wish them all the best. its ur frens wad. i bet if i tell my frens my view and all, they will support mi too. jus wateva.. be happy.. =)

and my fren who jus broke up recently said tt if she sees her ex in sch with another gal.. she makes sure she dun wan to see them again. like she will be super angry la. yup.. its the same thing. breaking up cos u have no more feelings or other excuses, but in the end its cos of someone else? tt hurts. i support all those whose heart broken =) lets form a club. lets be strong. haha.

good luck sam, all the best.

Sushi

2004-09-15T20:48:00.000+08:00

Sakae Sushi

oh man, im like so full la!! cannot even walk lor. walala and frens went for sushi buffet todae.. after a long long time. keep saeing we will go since months ago. we finally went. msot of us like starve the whole dae todae.. jus for the buffet. think i onli ate one meal todae. breakfast lunch dinner, all at Sakae. add altogether. lol.

since shu ate the most the last time they went, so i wanna compete with her todae la. and hse todae lousy leh, like nv eat much. wenx no need to compare la. she dun eat so much. so yah. i dunno how shu ccan eat 20+ plates the last time they went. i think she is mad. todae i ate like 18 and im really so so... full!! till like really cant walk liao.. lazy to tok also. there's 7 of us, then split into 2 tables. so like.. abit boring. nv tok much and the sushi like all the same. so sian. so was quite bored. till we play zhong zi mi ma! lalala.. play with wad? we are in Sakae.. and of cos its wasabi!! shiok sia. think i lost 2 times. one was ok.. the 1st one was bad.firstly, u will have the feeling in ur mouth, then will have a choking feeling coming out from the nose... and then.. its ur eyes!! cos u will start tearing! wah. and wenx is so lucky todae la, think she is scared of wasabi most lah.. then all other 6 of us lost b4.. and she still haven lose. so of cos we play until she loses la, and make sure we plan and scheme to make sure she gets it. and she got! but she cheated. she took the wasabi, then gobble so much green tea into her mouth.. then rinse rinse. like washing out the wasabi lidat.. how disgusting can?!? like Mr Bean lor!! she swallow the tea, then drank more!! and rinse again.. give up. then wun feel the wasabi. so cheat can? lol.. nvm.. was quite fun.

while walking out to the toilet.. saw these 2 "women".. saw them coming la. i really tot they were women, then when IT went pass us.. IT was speaking with a deep voice.. a guy's.. in hokkien summore. to think tt they look quite hot from the back.. haha. omg. always meet transvesite, or how u spell it, ard parkway. so mani la. like most of those i met its all when im at parkway. scared.. so tired! shall try to study!

ohoh.. eve baked cookies yest. then she kept some for mi. shared with my frens. its nice rite? all sae got standard. hahaha. like famous amos. well done =) very nice.. tata.

Experience

2004-09-13T21:19:00.000+08:00

Experience.. Learn..

yes lil shu.. im blogging. haha. keep asking me. =P anyway.. tok abt sat 1st. went to shu's house! last time tot some ppl's houses were quite big already, but her house is HUGE!! at least to me. =) haha. played mahjong. quite fun. won abt 5+.. im not bad huh? but i think its cos they are not so good. hahhaa. =X and i think shu is like quite spoilt? lol.. kitchen like 10m away also have to use intercom, call the maid to bring drinks in. like walk abit will die and all. and all the things la. ask maid do. lol. but for the fam's wealth level, i think its reasonable. yup. oh yah.. even the dog is fat.. really REALLY.. overweight!! she then walk us out to the mrt station, bringing the dog along. and everyone dog is like barking at her dog and bullying it la. hahaha. and shu sae, they dogs are saeing hi.. tts why barking at her dog.. im sureee. "friendly dogs".

oh then sunday. whole dae quite slack lor. nv do much. then went to church. new creation. went with nic. since there are mani things tt happened to mi the past month and all. and have been wanting to go to church. so i went lor. at suntec. its quite ok on the whole. jus din quite agree with one thing tt the pastor said. but guessed its their beliefs.. im open. yeah. so its not bad. had dinner with nic's fam. then his mom drove mi home. thanks auntie. =)

and todae.. was pretty tired and all. slept late. falling aslp i gp. nv really listen for the whole yr. dun care lah. lol. tok to yolks and all in the morning, then also realised sth.. sth sam said. loving may not be enough. think i blogged abt it b4. but yeah. think i understood it. though i care and love her and all. we are jus different. some things abt her im not perfectly ok with and think the same for her too. i may love her, but realised if we were to be together, probs will still come. cos we are diff. so yeah. a person has to suit u too, tt u are really alrite with him or her. not jus loving them. and yeah.. sometimes i may wish tt she is not my 1st. at least i will noe how to deal with things. wld have treated her better and stuff. be able to control my own feelings, noeing wad i wan. and have experience of how to be with gals and all. so tt maybe if she is not my 1st, i wld have learnt all those. and things might have been diff. but its over!! dear boon! haha. dun regret.. learn from it. and make sure u dun repeat the same mistakes. and i think i will be better . =) my next one wld be better.

sometimes i wonder.. from last time till now.. ppl whom i really like and care for, have no feelings for me. and those i have no feelings for.. some of them like me. hai. maybe im not suppose to get wad i wan? i dunno.. jus let things happen. wait for the person to appear. sometimes its pretty sad.. but wadeva! haha =)

erm.. studied with walala and all todae. mp library. did phy tutorial with wenx, help each other. quite fast. and shu is like... going ard sch todae. keep asking ppl if they think she is spoilt, jus cos i said she is. then keep proving she is not spoilt. volunterring to help ppl to things and all. and wenx and shu so guilty todae tt they took bus home. lol. nv ask parents to pick them up, dun wan to be spoilt. and shu ran for the bus!! tts good.. not those rich kids like run abit will die lidat. good good. haha. =)

wad do i really wan? im confused.

East Coast

2004-09-10T23:42:00.000+08:00

East Coast

todae is fun.. and tiring! haha. firstly.. had track meeting in the morning. to take photos! its quite nice and all. woke up a lil late.. tot i will be late for meeting. but arrived on the dot. and dear mr superstar 10.99, came one hr late.. whole team waiting for him. hohoho.. din dare to look up when he came.. keep saeing sorry. lol.. took some photos under the hot sun!!! ivana keep asking us to move here move there.. till amir is like.. ready anot?!?! we made a VJC photo, ppl making up the VJC letters, i think its so nice.

studied abit in sch after lunch. was quite hyper todae.. jus very happy. so long nv meet with the trackers. its like one big family lah. i like the feeling. all frens. so comfortable.. jus crap and stuff. we went east coast to play after tt!!! wow.. its like.. fun! lol.. din expect to play till so late lah.. but nvm, enjoyed it. basically we jus cycled and eat. we cycled to teh hawker centre.. then ordered alot of food lah! satay, hokkien mee, stingray,kangkong, chicken wings and sugar cane! enough for us.. jus nice. 8 ppl! hahaha.. then sth exciting happened! mary was bored lah.. then play this thing.. saeing tt when u mix ice with chilli and mani things.. it will produce heat. so we mix all.. plus all the satay sauce. and so.. yolk was so interested.. 1st one to try.. put her hand over the rojak.. but withdrew her hand quite fast.. then mary put there, to pretend to try the "heat", so then... dear ivana put her hand in.. and boom.. mary pushed her hand to the plate of "shit".. all the sauce on her hand. wad a game.. cheat ppl. merry christmas. nice "clean" hands.. saw tt trick b4, so i din try and tried not to laugh. lol!!

we jus continued to cycle.. till the end of the park.. then return. and lance keep ski-ing, dunno how to spell, his bike! and nic and lance do the cycle on one wheel thing.. on the back wheel.. play too much.. till when we got back. the uncle complain.. tyres flat liao. haha. ski too much. see la lance! got to pay 5 bucks more. but nvm. we enjoyed ourselves. ivana jus learnt cycling and shes not bad already lah.. alethia shld join us next time.. we will teach her!! come with us! lol..

alrite.. tired, long but fun dae. nitez.

Discrimination

2004-09-08T22:02:00.000+08:00

Discrimination

hm.. did work till 4am this morning la. stupid pw and stuff. stil can chat with matt abit ard 3+. wah not bad ah. haha. then got to get up early for physics lesson. i did my tutorial la, wanted to make sure i dun go there and waste my time. so i learnt things. yup.

studied with shuyar, wenlin, chun and one gal (forgot her name) at bk, parkway. spent quite a long time there, but duno why, din play alot, but wasnt very efficient. only did one tutorial, maybe cos i keep slping. but dunno. feeling very comfortable with wenx shu, chun no need to sae lah.. i like this comfortable feeling. doing wad u wan and sae wad u wan. be urself.

jus now on msn, so fun lah, me and daren disturbing shu and pauline. i tell daren sth abt shu, he will tell pauline, then pauline will tell shu i sae bad things abt her, then suddenly she will start scolding me. its a cycle lah.. quite interesting. fun fun. shu scolded mi lor. dont discriminate against the vertically challenged pple!!! lol!! its so funny lah, wad a statement to make! so yah, had quite an interesting talk jus now.. ok, gotta study, at least i will try.

Studying

2004-09-07T20:57:00.000+08:00

Studying

hm.. nth much.. so lazy to update last few daes. erm.. todae like quite boring.. but i did one maths tutorial. studied with eve at bukit merah.. and toked to her abit after tt. lol. why i study with her? cos everyone abandon mi!! onli gareth is on lah.. everytime i ask him he will come.. stupid bong refuse to come out. then when i reach home jus now, dunno why, suddenly feel this emptiness feeling.. i dun think its sam.. its not abt her. its jus tt i lost the feeling of noeing theres always someone there caring so much for u.. tt any small thing tt happened to mi, she will also worry, noeing someone is always there for u, asking how u are and everything, jus like a mother, its very nice, not irritating at all.. i miss this feeling.. tt someone is there, and i care abt this person so much too.. dun have this sense of purpose, to take care of her, make sure shes well.. so jus like doing nth. sense of loneliness. esp when all of u abandon mi!! dun wan to study with mi la.. lol.. okok. boring dae. going sch tmr. hope will be productive. bye

another stayover?

2004-09-04T13:02:00.000+08:00

another stayover?

alot of things to type.. omg. and sometimes im jus so lazy to update. but yeah.. its a way to vent everything on my blog. think i'll try to make it shorter.

the past few days had been good quite ok.. met up with frens, talking to ppl in sch. then din feel so lonely. but yeah. and did i sae i got her number already? haha, jus frens.. told too mani ppl abt it, till now they keep saein and saein.. till i also feel sian already. not interesting anymore. lol. and yeah, saw her blog and stuff, i conclude tt she is abit ah lian, hang out alot.. lol.

and i read sam's blog on fri.. she said sth she is quite confused now, afraid that she will do anything wrong to drive him away, and tt she thinks she is in love already. though i expected it, but the reality hurts lah. seriously. those who has not been thru, u really wun noe how it feels, and though who had been thru it or are going thru now.. hey im here with u! haha. come to me, we can talk. it jus feels really terrible, imagining her hugging and kissing the guy for example. its jus so terrible. but wad can i do? toked to james.. almost the same stuff, and we have same feelings now.. but yeah.. we both thinking tt, we still like them. and though we are trying to move on and everything, we still have a lil place inside our heart tt we are waiting for them.. for those who has watched 13 going 30.. its like matt.. and yeah, i watched tt girly show. he also said tt, ya, we jus have to focus on doing our own things now. yes we will think of them, feeling terrible.. but as far as possible.. try not to think too much. get the tot out of our mind as soon as possible. one thinkg tt we can be comforted is tt.. they are happy now.. tts wads most impt. and they really like each other.. all the best. we'll try to move on. slowly. though we both think tt their relationship wun last, properly a rebound.. though we may be consoling ourselves.. but yeah.. they still have a place in our heart when they come back. i hope u do.. lets jus move on, if the feelings come back. great. and we both bothered them too much, till they are like quite irritated. haha, making things worse. our first loves. we learn from it. =) getting better at controlling my feelings now.. thanks everyone. yest i told shu, think i like her even more now.. very nice fren.

we chose a track table!! dunno if it will work out, but we'll try. team spirit, its wad we need, though i think im the one influencing everyone to hate vj and causing "internal conflict" haha.

so long.. and i still haven talk abt the stayover. ok cut short, this time at matt's place.. we are how slack lah, was at starbucks lah, chatting, ALOT of lame jokes which are quite funny.. laugh till mad. lol. then was like 10.. so late already, i tell matt.. hey late already lah, dun feel like going home. stay at ur house? lol. then everyone's like.. yeahhhh.. dun feel like going home.. but again, after a while.. we're already discussing, "so who's house are we going ah?" haha, we are so on.. jus dun feel like going home.. always mi suggesting. lol. super slacker. im known for the super fast call.. telling my mom im not going home. "hello.. ma ah? im not going home tonite. staying at fren's house.." then.. mom, "ok.." lol. they always time me.. abt 8 secs?

in the house, daren brought risk, we played risked 1st, mi fader and gareth, allying each other.. 3 against the rest of the world. and of cos we won la! killed the other 3 players and decided not to play anymore, cos left 3 of left, frens dun hurt each other yeah? so no winner, we declare ourselves top 3. lol. then monopoly, matt's best game, super cunning.. but again, with me and fader allying, trading money and property like dunno wad.. we won! winning is not impt.. wads impt is to make matt lose!! he is very intelligent, every game also schemes alot, very smart, always win, so now whenever we play, always kill him 1st. common enemy! but sometimes he still can win, even if we have alliance. stupid idiot.. haha! play murderer also kill him 1st. super poor thing. and hes leaving on sundae. james too. send 2 at one go, save more time. =)

yeah i typed alot! haha, though i said short? did i? i love my blog. best fren. oh and i prayed again yest. 3rd time, when i was feeling terrible. tts all folks.

stayover

2004-09-01T20:11:00.000+08:00

Stayover

yup, yest was teacher's dae celebrations.. vj's performance was jus a play by the teachers.. its quite interesting la. with all the teachers dancing and stuff.. quite funny also. not too bad on the whole, though its like couldnt wait to go back to sji.. where its home.

we shared cab to go back.. managed to catch one last performance.. though its not impt to us at all. we jus wanted to meet the teachers and feel the place.. its really like going home.. its so comfortable bring there. like u dun wan to leave the place.. met the teachers, tok some crap. then went town to watch a movie with 04. 04 outing! since a long time. ate.. watched a movie.. which i nearly slept la! team sji met up and head to emerald to break some records.. though we din really play daytona, records werent impt.. its jus abt enjoying ourselves.

oh ya, we decided on the day to stayover at daren's place.. its like.. we onli talked abt the stayover briefly when we met the other time, so when we reached sji.. its like.. i asked.. "so are we going to daren's house tonite?" then everyone was like.. "wah, so sudden, got meh? nv inform earlier.." haha.. then we discussed abit.. a minute later.. everyone's like.. "so issit on? set man" lol.. i mean its jus so easy and everyone's so on lah.. can jus stayover anytime.. talked abt it on the afternoon itself, then go at nite. so onz.. no need to plan daes before unlike mani outings.. plan so long.. in the end no one go. lol.

disturbed them too much abt the stc gal at daren's place till they were quite annoyed i guess.. haha, but its quite fun. and nth much lah.. jus cut my hair..! xiu qing sae my hair was so homogenous.. all same length.. cos cut botak last time. now not so already k! anyway, think from now on.. i wun be late for sch anymore.. cos i will wake up to see her every morning.. lol. tata.

im back

2004-08-30T20:38:00.000+08:00

I'm Back..

haven been blogging for some time.. a few daes? haha. at cheryl's house now, doing pw. they are now at the dining table chattin while i jus take this time to update my blog. hm. well, i guess i jus give up on her already.. haven msged her for 2 daes and it hink i jus wan to forget her la. jus now in sch, chun was saenig im so heartless.. dun care abt her.. but haha, who's the heartless one? i dun mean anything la.. jus its jus how i feel lah. she said i have changed alot, became so different, not wanting to move on, though i said i wanted to, so now she cant trust mi at all, getting back together wld be "scary" like she said.. i jus dunno wad to do anymore.. yup, i'll go away.. yes..

was the poem for him? have u fallen for him? i jus dunno.. i think u have. if its the case, i hope things will go well for u, and i hope he is true to u.. if u 2 are really meant to be, i'll wish u 2 all the best. i think i 've pestered u enough, and sorta pushed u away further, maybe to him. issit a rebound? or do u really him? haha.. i jus wanna wish u all the best. dun wan to like sound so great or wad.. but really, as long as u are happy. if after everything, and if we are fated, then perhaps we will come back together. but well.. haha.. jus be happy.. pls.. tkcare. like mag told mi the other time, no matter wad, i will forever have a soft spot for u, no matter how much, it'll be there i guess..

act todae was quite ok, was quite hyper in sch.. toked to my frens, and msged the sa ppl too. haha can find smiles on my face.. yeah its coming.. slowly, like i said, jus wanted time. hahha, but dunno why, once i reached cheryl's house, its like.. sian.. getting abit bad mood, irritated by dunno wad, i dunno whether its cos i took a long time to get here, or cos i dislike pw.. haha, will try not to let my mood control mi.. and vent it on ppl, they din offend me. i gotta learn this.. to control myself. =) slowly.. haha

they asked mi to write abt them, though i really dunno wad to write.. haha. thank cheryl's mom for the dinner, though im still abit hungry. lol.. and though pw really sucks, but i have a feeling that after everything, we will miss it, cos we have worked so hard together.. and have all the meetings which we did not do anything.. and we name those meetings.. "bonding time".. yeah its pretty fun la. my grp.. ryl aka ob1 aka dumbledore aka legolas, calvin aka martian aka yoda aka frodo aka lupin, hui ping aka r2d2 aka hermione aka arwen, serena aka vader aka the eye(sauron) aka voldermort.. and myself aka c3p0 aka aragon aka harry potter.. lol.. they made mi typed all these.. i dun even noe who i am.. haha

kept disturbing ben, bong and daren todae, talking abt stc.. haha if u all noe la.. maybe tmr i'll sae hi. haha. this is very interesting.. tts all!!

getting better

2004-08-27T18:39:00.000+08:00

Getting Better..

hm.. think on the whole, todae was quite a good day lah. woke up ard 7, then realised i'll be late for sch, and since sch doesnt start till 10am, i slept till 8+ la.. super slack. but i dunno, naturally i jus felt quite happy todae, unknowingly, i realised tt im smiling. sth tt i lack, and cldnt be found on the face for quite some time already. wad to do.. i lost the gal i love so much, though i think theres really hope for us, but well. haha. and i really dun like vj.. however, cant do anything rite? since im here, jus take some time to recover, and make the best out of everything lor. honestly, its really nice lah, theres still hope in vj with my frens.. they are the ones to keep mi going.. its so nice tt even people u are not so close to, will jus msg u and see if u are alrite.. theres still love ard. and tts great. =) not very good yet, but getting better..

my fren jus msged and said thank you.. i was wondering and asked why? she said thanks for helping her relationship with her bf. i was jus going home with her.. then was crapping and all, but dunno why suddenly we started on the topic of like hows things between she and her bf.. then tok and tok.. found out tt they are not in a very good situation la.. very similar to mi and my ex-gf, the reason we broke up, and they are experiencing the same thing, almost similar.. so i was quite worried for him. and thru it, i realised tt i have almost totally the same personality as her bf, which is also my good fren.. i think people of our character tend to think too much, and afraid of doing the wrong things or screw things up. till sometimes we rather not do or say anything and jus agree with people to please them though we have sth to sae.. i dunno.. perhaps its lidat for me. think i was too afraid to lose her.. or jus dun wan to sae anything wrong. ok out of pt.. so my fren feels like i helped them get stronger together.. did i really help at all? i dunno, i hope i did. its really sad to feel how im feeling now.. so i dun wish people to be in my state. and my mood now is not very good again.. haha.. feelings the things again.. yup, whether i played a part in making them stronger.. its not really impt. as long as they are fine now.. jus pitying myself.. helping others yes.. who can help mi? who can change her mind? yes i wan her back.. who to teach mi how to? sometimes i ask myself if im a good guy on the whole, and honestly, i think im really not too bad lah.. =P at least tts how i feel, i really try to treat ppl well lor, esp after all these events tt happened to me recently. yes its not abt how i treat u i noe, its whether we can connect.. is loving really not enough?

will good things happen to me? we'll jus see.. thanks everyone who had been there for me. A BIG THANK YOU!!

another sad day

2004-08-25T19:21:00.000+08:00

jus another day..

well its jus like another day lor, nth much happened in sch.. and i guess i still wan her la. still thinking of her, msged her abit, her replies were cold. heartbreaking. she really wans to forget mi? or she jus wans to sort out her feelings? yes, i admit.. i dunno if im moving on, cos i still have the hope of getting her back. i really wan her la. i always wish and dream tt one dae, we will be together again, tt she will come back to me. and i have been dreaming quite often that we are still together, playing ard, happily together, then when i wake up... i'll be like.. "ah shit.." i jus hope it will happen in reality. issit really God's plan for me? to teach me a lesson? and lead mi to a better gal who can appreciate me? i dunno.. i really hope so. but though she may not be the perfect one.. but im happy enough with her. i dun dare to ask for too much, but jus be happy..

will you ever come back to me? like how we solve every problem we come across last time? dealing in together and get happier? this is problem really tt big tt even hand in hand.. we cant overcome it? isnt it jus another hurdle tt we have to cross in our relationship? sob. luckily i still have some frens.. was with chun and yolk jus now, studying in the lib, though we spent most of our time toking and slping.. lol.. tata..

soul searching

2004-08-24T18:48:00.000+08:00

Soul Searching..

dunno wads wrong with mi todae, probably still on the after-effects of my breakup.. but seriously, vj sucks la, i really dun like the sch, envoirnment, distance and ppl.. it makes mi really regret coming here, i came here for studies and most imptly.. track. but track seems nth to me now, i dun have the passion and drive i used to have anymore.. i dun have the urge to encourage my teammates to train harder anymore, i jus dunno wads wrong.. after running 8 yrs competitively.. have acheived most of what i've wanted.. except the overall title tt we lost this yr.. i really dunno wads else there for me..

luckily, there are still some ppl in sch to keep mi happy, encouraging me.. walala, track, some sji ppl and some of my classmates.. thanks alot! i jus need some time.. some time.. i need to find out wad i really wan, and yes, im lost.. seriously. anyone who noes mi will noe i dun like studying.. and wads there to do now? i need to find myself.. get myself going, i noe i need to do tt.. but can i do it? jus need a break.. maybe if i have chosen another jc, things wld have been different, maybe sa, i cld do the things im doing in vj.. track, badminton etc. while i will have all my frens there, and probably i wun lose my gf too, who had been such a huge huge part of my life.. motivation to keep mi going, noeing she's there.. but there's nth left now, expect vj to keep mi going? oh pls.. but its not tt i hate vj so much, though i always tell ppl tt.. perhaps its jus a down period of my life.. like my coach said when i tok to him jus now,.. jus hope things will get better yeah?

wld u rather be born in another country? maybe, myabe not, or perhaps we jus shldnt have gone to jc.. its the system perhaps, i dunno.. din msg her todae, dun plan to.. trying to control myself.. and she wans me to go away too i noe. been thinking abt the times we had todae.. its jus lovely. really cant imagine all these moments coming to an end, jus cant believe it.. the hugs, kisses, laughters, smiles.. all gone? pretty sad, but gotta accept reality.. and i will try my best to move on.. perhaps one day we may get together again? or perhaps i can find a better gal who suits me better? well.. i jus hope u are happy.. pls be k? ur smiles, one of ur best assets. =) yes i feel tt theres so much tt cld be done, so much i can changed and all, but its ur decision.. i respect tt.. if its meant to be, its meant to be.. =)

argh, theres so much work to do la, and promos are really coming.. will try my best to study. i dun wish to repeat. its not worth it spending another yr of jc. its a killer. and sometimes sch is really useless la, the lessons are not impt at all, for some days, i rather staying at home and study lor, i think its more effective.. and i have been waking up late quite often recently.. always late for sch.. dun wan to get into trouble.. my form tutor looks so cunning, later one day he suddenly ask for mc for all the daes i missed.. then die.. lol

you may have a alot of frens..
but how many of them can really understand u?
in a lifetime, we may have 3 or 4..
but i think if we have jus 1.. we are fortunate enough..

my first entry

2004-08-23T21:39:00.000+08:00

my first entry

this is my blog!! i din know how to do anything, all done by cheryl!! thank you! dun quite noe how to use, but jus slowly.. try to learn. lol. actually had quite alot of things in my mind, wanted to jus type here, but we spent too much time setting up the blog, finding templates and stuff, all seems too complicated for mi.. =) but anyway, serena was reading this book called the da vinci code, talking abt mystries and also going against christianity, i think its a very interesting book la, feel like reading but its like so thick la.. and im not a fast reader or wat, will properly take forever.. and considering i have like countless maths turtorial to catch up, and i jus spent today doing nth accept setting this up.. ah well.. enough for todaae. =)